start afresh

RELINK

2009-01-01T04:52:00.000-08:00

PLEASE RELINK!

www.foundtobelost.blogspot.com

decided to change after every year
shallnt delete this current one
coz too many good/bad memories!
^^
yea
relink love

first day of 2009

2009-01-01T02:07:00.000-08:00

i got a slight headache
;[
first day of new day already chase people for things le
so sad
first day is so boring
nothing different
haha
;[
still got to study pharm
and BCLS
hai
and 2wks ltr attachment
6wks ltr exams
sian haha

cant believe gg to waste the first day of new yr
suppose to go out with family
but stupid list thingy haha
hai nvm
cannot complain!!!

ltr when get photos frm joey den shall load all at FACEBK!
yea!!

2009

2008-12-31T00:25:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!^^
its so fasttt
cant believe it

in 2009:
i want to drop two sizes down
i want to study really hard and do well
i want to rise up in ministry
i want to continue my vocal class
i want to be more thrifty so i can go for vocal classes
i want to reduce taking kachings frm parents
i want to be spiritually discipled
i want to make frens that will last
i want to learn to accept things and move on
i want to be wise in my words and esp blogging
i want to learn guitar/drums
i want to get a new mini lappy
i want to have better time management
i want to be neat and tidy

365
can i do it?
hopefully haha
bold ones go first haha

cold hearted

2008-12-30T03:18:00.000-08:00

so wet blanket
i failed one man CPR the day b4 new year's eve
haha
retarded
hai nvm
this is the most tiring practical i ever taken ahha!
imagine doing so many times of CPR haha
*faints*

anways on the way to mrt
ying and i were talking about how times from our age onwards seems to fly by like nobody's business!
thou in the past and now time is still the same
same 24hr, same 7days, same 365days/yr
it just goes so quickly!!
when we were younger we wish time would speed up
but now we just wish for time to slow down
haha
i cant imagine myself gng out to earn money
getting married
having children
raising them and watching them getting married
growing old with my spouse
and
eventually dying
seems so impossible to imagine what i will be like at those different stages
but it seems so soon all these will come

life is just so unpredictable
so unimaginable
just like we are waiting for a beautiful art piece to finish b4 knowing what it looks like
haha
oh wells
haha

come to think abt life and its long way
and being so unpredictable
i guess no matter wat problems, circumstances or people that u dont like
all these seems so insignificant in comparison to wat life can bring
i guess theres no need to bear grudges or make life difficult for self

as wat dory [in nemo] says JUST KEEP SWIMMING, JUST KEEP SWIMMING, JUST KEEP SWIMMING
just keeping going
haha

true true?
anws i highly recommand a book called
THE SISTER'S KEEPER by jodi picoult
i always wanted to read this bk but nv got the chance haha
till wei darl lend me the bk coz the time traveller's wife bk want available haha!
anws this is the first bk that cause so much emotions in me
really sad
and it challenged me to think in the different character's shoes
they shld make a movie out of this man
haha!
yes! haha
read read
go read haha

^^

make it or break it

2008-12-29T21:13:00.000-08:00

my anger nv last over a day
i apologise if i mentioned things that are disagreeable
in the moment of frustration that i blog
i just had to let it out
but my anger/frustration nv last for more than a day

some stuffs aint worth getting angry for too long

i give up
i just want to change my focus
tightrope
so scary to know that either it will make it or break it
more effort?more communication?more giveNtake?more time?
tell me whats on ur mind

i soompa nt to get frustrated or angry le
haha
will get white hair, higher BP and winkles
heh^^
calm and cool

^^
today got CPR assessment!!!
scaryyyyy
haha
wish me all the best
YEAHHHHH
tmr gng for countdown
yeaaa
cant wait for 2009!!!!
^^

2 days to clear everything up

just one freaking chocolate ;[

2008-12-29T08:22:00.000-08:00

i ate chocolate today
;[
tmr shallnt eat so much
;[
i think i need a stronger dosage
is nt working!!!!!
sobs*

hai so worried i cant maintain aft i lose haha

anyways kinda happy got ppl mention i lost weight
!!!
yea~~~
by the end of 2009!

smile

2008-12-28T06:49:00.000-08:00

one thing i know
no matter how angry i get
no matter how upset i get
somethings are just not within my control
no point getting even more upset with situations
so let the past be the past
just as it is

is tired being angry and upset
and seeing wat ever that i have done towards the situation the results are the same
so instead i chose that:
i want to smile everyday!

can someone tell me what makes up a good fren?

2008-12-28T04:28:00.000-08:00

i so wanna complain!!!!!!!!!!!
omg

*pull hair out*
*pull hair out*
*pull hair out*
*pull hair out*
*pull hair out*

so frustrating
to face reality
that all this months of blessings
all my money, all my efforts
has all been wasted into the drain
so angry with myself
for sowing on wrong ground
for giving soo much
and wats the result?
i get all this crap shit frm u
not just frustrating
but HAIR PULLING frustrating
while u enjoy urself in ur love love land
i wonder if whether u considered me at all?
dont expect me to read ur mind..and know how u feel or want or need
im nt telepathic
dont expect me to be at ur calling everytime u say my name
dont expect me to respect u fully when u only give me a minimum respect
dont expect me to be a good fren if u aint one to me

while u go ahead and be in love love land
i officially wont bother about u unless if neccessary
dont expect too much
im too tired
;[
it needs to get out of my system
i dont intend to be emotionally shutdown
or emotionally too hyperactived! heh

*sign of relief*
tough world tough reality
dont expect everything to be fair
dont expect that everyone will be nice to u
tought world tought reality
but most imptly be courageous
and face it

Isaiah 41:10 Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Do not
be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. I will help you. I will
uphold you with my victorious right hand.

2008-12-28T01:04:00.000-08:00

i must stop complaining
i must stop dwelling on the same problem
i must stop being lazy
i must stop being foolish
i must stop being selfish
i must stop being a spendthrift
i must stop being so untidy

i must start doing something about the problems
i must start moving on
i must start working hard for what i want
i must start being more observant
i must start loving those who love me for who i am and stop wasting time on ppl who take advantage of my love!!!!!
i must start being thifty
i must start being tidy

4 days to 2009
guess this 4 days is the detoxifying days
throw all the bad of 2008
all the tears, anger, uphappiness of 2008
no rooms for regrets, no rooms for the past
so that on 31 at 00 01
im ready to embrace a brand new start...more opportunities...
more valleys and mountains
*fighting*!!!!!!

oh i just realised on 31 aft countdown
im gng drinking with frens
LOL
retarded
wat a way to start 2009

!!!!

first

2008-12-28T00:13:00.000-08:00

had chalet yesterday
at a beautiful bungalow at pasir ris park
haha
had bbq
and everyone slacked haha!
and i decided to play mahjong for awhile
haha
end up! play till the next morning!!
LOL
yea first time and i had sooooo much fun !!!!!!!!
YEA, im good now!.... haha

anws super tired
everyone is haha
all ton to play
watch movie
eat
haha

and sch starts tmr im feeling lazy and fearful
haha
;[
sobs

sometimes is hard to not thinking abt the situation
about everything and how nice if only something else happen rather den this
sometimes it scares me how my mind works
i dont like this
i try and i try
i thought i got out of it..only realizing i haven
i just cant be comfortable around u anymore
sometimes i feel that i gotta act?
and that saddens me ALOT;[
boo
HELP!?
haha

desperate call for a different move
hopefully soon it all will go
just like the passing seasons
knowing something new is coming

DAY6
day 6 so fast hah
i lost another KG
haha
mmm
sometimes i ponder whether izzit really the drug fully working on my brain
or coz i have this mentality abt the drug that it is suppose to curb my appetite
thats y if i dont the drug working i auto tell myself im nt hungry or i eat lesser haha ???
well i better start exercising
haha

yep yep
cant wait for 2009!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
must set goals

^^

2008-12-26T06:40:00.000-08:00

heh
just clean up my rooomm
haha
so happy
is neat
but a lot of barangs aha

at least get the unhappy thoughts out!
heh
^^

run away

2008-12-26T03:26:00.000-08:00

i love this 2 pictures of myself haha

random note:
im pissed off
feel like running away from ★
feel like avoiding ★
but i know i cant
and that sucks
haha
wow

there are 2 kind of people
1. look weak on the outside but strong on the inside
2. look strong on the outside but weak on the inside

i wish i can be the latter one
;[

26dec is really a bad day haha
HA

*faints*

abt ★
wat am i suppose to do
when everytime i try the results are the same
give up? change method?

PS: i lost another KG^^

F !

2008-12-26T02:45:00.000-08:00

F for
fluuuu
URGH i hate it man!;[
gives me an itchy nose,
red eyes,
lethargy,
headache,
moodiness,
fever
urgh!

i got this fear the drug wont work haha
didnt really feel like no appetite today haha
but i did manage to tell myself to eat healthier, drink loads of water
mmmm
arg
still got N/V and dry mouth haha

and today i cause myself to have a bad day
coz i decided to meddle
trying to make things like it was in the past
but all i found out was more disappointments
and that instead of gng back to like the past
things got worst
maybe coz im a little too sensitive haha
and maybe a little jealous again
bad bad~~
boo;[

anyways must reallly thank joey darl!
for the woonderfulll present!!!
made my day again!^^
lovessss

PS: is only human nature to seek for attention

HAPPY CHRISTMAS

2008-12-24T11:00:00.000-08:00

as how jw says the caucasian say
HAPPY CHRISTMAS
which is true is happy
but merry sounds nicer LOL!
anws had svc
was fabulous!
drama was really good^^

den went out with wei darl and jon [HEARTS]
to clarke quay
haha
sat and stone and talk
realllllly enjoy though i was kinda quiet today haha
tired i guess?
and thks darling for getting the size 10 i repeat size TEN high waist skirt for me
thou i cant wear now.....is a motivation to me to cont working hard in losing weight!!!
haha
LOVESSSSSSSSS
and first time overnite eve to christmas haha
with darl and jon
^^
enjoyed!
and i walked home haha
exercise LOL

so its day TWO of taking drug
haha
side effects are really bad haha
1. nausea and vomiting
2. palpitations
3. dry mouth and throat
haha
yesss i had all 3 today
coz ate tgt with darl and jon
den after go toilet auto vomit all out ;[
the worst is dry mouth and dry throat really bad
i drank one bottle of water 5mins later thirsty again
as though in sahara desert!
haha
anws it really works haha
had brunch-->one meal only
den nv eat le
haha

conclusions:
pros
1.helps control hunger-->eat and snack lesser
2. lost 0.5kg
3. train to eat lesser

cons
1. side effects
2.cell starvation, maybe ketoneacidosis if long term [which i wont haha!]
3. kinda unhealthy way of losing weight as thou like crash diet haha!

anws we will see the results in a few mths time haha
see how~
LOL!

duromine

2008-12-23T08:09:00.000-08:00

the whole day i have been analysing about this drug in my mind haha
btw is a weight lossing pill
that i started today ahha

MOA:
-appetite suppressant
-works like phentermine
-acts on our Central Nervous System . It stimulates our nerve cells to release neurotransmitters which are a group of particular chemical compound including adrenalin.The neurotransmitters signal an acute stress response (also called fight-or-flight response, the two options one has, when facing danger) to the body which, in turn, puts a halt to the hunger signal. As a result, it causes a loss in appetite because the brain does not receive the hunger message.

side effects:
-insonmia
-dry mouth
-n/v
-giddy

was thinking kay la true will lose weight coz cut down food intake = lesser carbo to burn = burn fats instead leading to weight loss
but if i eat lesser means lesser nutritions for the cells--> cell starvation?
and if lesser carbo burn=more fats burns-->ketoneacidosis?
maybe in long term
shldnt be taking too long haha

day 1:
-true i have lesser appetite but im hungry haha
just cant eat;[
-and when my mouth is itchy feel like eating actually it motivates the psychological aspect to not munch on snacks
haha!
and seriously dry mouth is my biggest side effect LOL!
so thirsty haha

heh

anws today went out with nessa! do hair extensions
seriously arh hair extension is like a drug addiction LOL!
plus is expensive LOL!!
just cant stop
anws i added wavy ones haha!
damn thick=super hot
haha
oh wells wont spend le haha no kachings!!!

den went to makan shop for gifts
and went to play pool with tin and jon and ltr cher joined!
can u believe i won jon!!!
omg
and they say i improved LOL
thks to one day of WII at ben's class
LOL
damn funny
super enjoy
and after i watch we got married
i realised i have been whining alot LOL!
omg
yucks

and
I DECLARE MY LOVE FOR ANDY LEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and solbi
coz they rawks my fav couple
and no. 2 is hwangbo and hyun joong
hyun joong is like soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo funny
coz he is so blunt haha!!!
omg i love how he makes hwang bo laughs!!
haha

i still love ANDY LEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hearts ANDY AND SOLBI

2008-12-20T22:40:00.000-08:00

oh man im hooked unto WE GOT MARRIED-korean reality show!!
and i loveeeeeeeeee ANDY AND SOLBI
coz i really loveee solbi
coz i think im a liitle like solbi
LOL!!!
andy is realllyyy niceeeeeeee !
im crazy~ haha

andy is sooo freaking cutee with his heart dance!!!
haha

NYPVE CONCERT!~

2008-12-20T07:23:00.000-08:00

NYP VE!!!!

THE CHIO BUs
[missing: xiu xiu!!! ;[ ]

INDIVIDUALS!

didnt manage to take with alot of peeps

but i loveee ALL OF U!!!!!!!!

haha

was tiring and all

but ultimately we had fun tgt!

LOVES

flying for the same passion!

CONCERT CONCERT CONCERT

2008-12-18T07:44:00.000-08:00

CONCERTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
tmr!!!!!!!
so fast!
been sooo busy
i missed out alot of things
sad
and i guess i disappointed people
but...
nvm
still happy concert can go on!
thou everything is like haha u know .....
but still glad to have this concert
sing sing sing!!!

heh
been sucha a journey with people of the common interests
we fought we laughed
some even got tgt
LOL
wink wink
haha!
yea VE is like another social insitution for me
haha

one thing i fear most as a human
is fear to disappointments
be it to others to self or others disappointing u
more imptly the first
haha
i guess is natural?
mmm
i dont really like it
vvv irritatin
where u naturally tend to live for ppl/impress ppl
i guess theres only a certain extend we can stop feeling tat way....
irritating!

before the year ends

2008-12-17T08:18:00.000-08:00

before the year ends
i want to clear everything
settle everything!
haha
wat need to be leave behind i shall leave it in the
catergory 2008
and move on into 2009 HAPPILY!
so fast another year is coming to an end
so true
when u are younger u want time to go faster
but as u grow old time just simply FLIES!!!
urgh
and wink of an eye is the nxt yr and u are older haha

but b4 this yr
one thing i want to set right
is
connecting back to God
so that i can continue with my PASSION!!
and to leave behind a person
to wash my hands of a v close person
if u know who u are or ppl u read u know who
im fine abt it
coz is a goooddd thing!
haha
COZ I HAVE MY OWN LIFE TO LED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wohoo~

hopefully u too
b4 the year ends
u will learn to put those memories that belong to 2008 in there
and move on HAPPILY into 2009
HEHE!

SMILES

end of birthday

2008-12-17T07:23:00.000-08:00

hai abt 30mins to the end of my birthday
haha
super happpyyy today
coz spend my birthday with my cousins and gugu
haha
bought many many christmas giftsss
haha
per person 200 budget
faints
haha!

and had prac today
super tired
alot of crap
and last min
hai

and tats how i end my birthday
tmr is whole day!!!
faints haha

legal

2008-12-16T10:01:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

and i love myself more each day

haha

im legal

ask me out!!!

PS: thks for all who sent ur wished

I REALLLYYYY LOVEEEEEE ALL OF UUUUU!!

rock on!

haha

and on my birthday

i want:

1. to stop being childish

2. to stop being silly and overly soft hearted

3. to be stonger

4. to be more independent

5. to achieve my goals and dreams!

on my birthday i reflected on who i was the past 18 yrs

and realised that i have been complaining too much...crying/feel upset over small little things

..imagine/think too much.....fear too much

and from 17dec2008

im 18 i will be different

YES!

but i will still blog loads and be retarded at times

is inborn

cant help it

HEH

one more day

2008-12-16T01:08:00.000-08:00

actually is 7 more hours of being 17 years old
OH MAN!!
i dont wanna grow old in age haha
;[

anws went birthday lunch and shopping with daddy
i tink he wanna keel me le la haha!
bought quite a few stuff
shall take pictures later and post
including sunday's shopping haha!
and the shoes that i bought i though was 50 end up 67 dollars!!!!
haha river island de
LOL
damn funny
anws i spend alot during the 2 days!!!!
faints haha
thank God im not slim otherwise my parents will go bankrupt
LOL!!!!
ok anws

on the way home
i was thinking abt sth
and i realised that is v true u cant really tell that this person is not for you
is harder den wat u think haha
coz u urself can nv be too sure too
and neither can the person
starting out in the relationship..no one would expect any breakups rite
haha
nvm
just some random thoughts
been thinking alot this few days

delimma

2008-12-15T19:59:00.001-08:00

my ah ma damn cute...ask her pose for photo with me...she keep looking at me LOL!!!!!

see i chio i know haha

and sorry for spasticness in this picture..i LOVE IT!

seriously i have been soooo busy this past few mths

that one thing i regret is not being able to spend time with my family

and on sunday had dinner and catch up with family

im super happpppppppppppyyyyyyyyyyyy!!! (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:
yes haha

and my birthday this yr aint gng to be so sad ha!

at least gng out with my aunties and cousinssssssss

yeaness

coolness

cant wait for wed!!!!!!!!

haha

anws

oh man!!!!!!!!!!
im in a DELIMMAAAA!!!
helpppppppp
this wk is the busier
both for VE and church
OMG!
shld i go for VE prac or church stuff...
oh man
plus both on my birthday!
how?
HOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW??

the 2009 saga!

2008-12-15T09:39:00.000-08:00

is finally over~
haha
anyways details wont be given
but i realised and is so v true
that every circumstance we go through in life
has its purpose its reason
and it has it way of shaping us
is only how u embrace the circumstance
and whether u accept this process
how you view our circumstance
rmb is all in our PERSPECTIVE
stop viewing things so negatively
and u will come to appreciate life even more~

haha
an add on
as i was pouring my cornflake and milk
i suddenly thought
how would i paint my life?
how would you paint your life?
maybe i shld draw and post up
soon soon
LOL
haha

Psalm 63
O God, you are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirsts for you,
my body longs for you,
in a dry and weary land
where there is no water.

I have seen you in the sanctuary
and beheld your power and your glory.
Because your love is better than life,
my lips will glorify you.
I will praise you as long as I live,
and in your name I will lift up my hands.
My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of foods;
with singing lips my mouth will praise you.
On my bed I remember you;
I think of you through the watches of the night.
Because you are my help,
I sing in the shadow of your wings.
My soul clings to you;
your right hand upholds me.
They who seek my life will be destroyed;
they will go down to the depths of the earth.
They will be given over to the sword
and become food for jackals.
But the king will rejoice in God;
all who swear by God's name will praise him,
while the mouths of liars will be silenced.

ERLINA!!!! ........wonderful unsolvable mystery.r/s

2008-12-15T08:26:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST ERLINAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!
ILOVEU LOADS!

btw can u believe she is 20 le!
omg no rite
look like 16!
;[

i promise to stop pointing at ur boobs le

LOL!

anws

WOMAN
is one wonderful unsolvable mystery
that never fail to puzzle man haha
and having so much magnetic force to pull man towards them
hai

i seriously hate all this love love r/s r/s thingy rite now
so fan
nt me personally
but but but
i kinda got a fear mmmm
not sure
all this while all this while~

now i see
and i thank God
now i understand
so much easier~
haha
like a burden lifted off
no jealousness
no tears
no more cold wars
no more confusion
and that was wat i need before the year comes to an end!

i love myself ha

2008-12-13T21:45:00.000-08:00

as again self pics
haha

birthday.2008

2008-12-13T08:42:00.000-08:00

as my birthday draws closer
btw is in 3 days time
haha
anyways
i realised i took
12 years [counting frm pri to sec to poly]
it took me 12 years to love myself for who i am
think pri and esp sec was the worst
i guess that thou i may nt be as slim or tall like a supermodel
or have looks that everyone would die for
i still thank God for myself
coz is a workmanship by God
and suddenly i dont wanna turn 18
haha

anyways 2008 is coming to an end
and im starting to look back at this whole year
one thing that changed my whole world
one person
i guess i have been to busy revolving my life ard this person
that i neglected alot of things ard me!
but yet this person is a blessing to me
how ironical
oh watever

haha
must start reflecting soon

birthday!
birthday!
birthday!
birthday!
birthday!
heh
i want a quiet birthday this year
with family and all
i seriously misssss my family loads!;[

twilight.nessa

2008-12-12T20:15:00.000-08:00

ok nessa and myself went to watch TWILIGHT!
yesssssssssssssssssssss
long awaited
haha
welllll
mmmm i know im weird
but watever but i think edward is nt bad at some angle! and carlise aint that bad la! [nessa cfm diagree]
fine fine
the show is fine
the bk is better haha

den we went to GLORIA JEAN!
to lim kopi and chit chat
omg yesterday was a BLAST talking to nessa
listening
updating
sharing some feelings that i have been keeping! oops ><

and we walked to PS! to take cab
like tat cheaper! LOL
haha
ya lo
man i feel so much better after hanging out with NESSSAAA
very encouraged by her
i love nessa
haha

and yes there are some feeling
to me is abnormal
coz i dont want them!!!
but i guess is phrase of life
now i know why im so silly
can u imagine me being jealous
WOW!
shit i think im possesive!
HA
dieeeeeeeeee
haha
and i realised how much restriction can cripple one's learning journey
u dont learn abt life through others but the main learning occurs went u go through it urself!
SILENCE!i'll kill u!
haha
achmed seriously rock!
LOVE ACHMED!

2008-12-11T05:31:00.000-08:00

JOEY AND SUEE
FROM YR ONE!!!!

TO YEAR TWOS

ZOMG!

SO MUCH DIFFERENCE RITE!

ESP JOEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHA

joey the CHIO BU sia haha

words

2008-12-10T01:59:00.001-08:00

words
is a powerful tool to convey
emotions, feeling, thought
yet also a powerful tool
to mislead people

so izzit the fault of words?
or izzit fault of human?

silliest

2008-12-09T06:51:00.000-08:00

silly
1.weak-minded or lacking good sense; stupid or foolish: a silly writer.
2. Archaic. rustic; plain; homely.
3. Archaic. weak; helpless.
4. Obsolete. lowly in rank or state; humble.

shit
how can i be WEAK-MINDED, LACKING GD SENSE, STUPID

i cant be silly
i wont be silly
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
haha
im no sua ku
thks

i guess i was
blindly follow .
trusted u
place u in my top priority
but aft all~~
i find myself silly for doing so
who are u to me?
and who am i to u?
im nt even sure......
so crappy rite haha
ya
i dont think im even in ur priority list
so difficult to ask for ur minimum
haha
and i gave too much le
watever

i made mummy upset
on her birthday
shit la
i nv even think abt her situation
and i just keep wasting money
im so silly
so unwise
hai
i almost cried while eating my beef
i felt soooo bad
im not rich too
but i gave at the expense of myself
no wonder my money seem to fly away so fast
;[
i shldnt spend $$ so easily

so now as of 9dec
im broke and decided not to take kaching frm mummy
i shall just survive with the little tat i have

i need to wake up
and start changing
start applying

IM NO SILLY BILLY
AND I LOVE MY MUMMY
^^

2008-12-09T04:05:00.000-08:00

haha i decided! to post pictures on my blog
is very wordy rite hah
so heres the pictures taken with FAMMY AND JO
camwhore venue : MARINA SQUARE MACS! haha
super funny!

i think i can award myself for the

SILLEST PERSON THAT EVER LIVED

aha

seriously

hai

haha

i shall stop being so silly really

not fun at all!

boo

anws tat time stayed at j's hse

justin was asking us our dream at 4/5 am

and i said my dream is to a HOUSEWIFE

is a dream cause i realised the importance of FAMILY

and being there for my children

if i do get married and have kids

now still too young to determine hha

of course i have big dreams

i will never give up on being a WORSHIP LEADER! in church

and im still deciding which to specialist in

but i know i want to be the best tat i can!

SSN-->clinical instructor

mmm

dont really wan be sister leh

coz want to work more in the ward kind

not so admin la haha!

wats urs?

r/s

2008-12-08T07:53:00.000-08:00

let be honest haha
who at this age
being single wont ponder when they will be able to be attached?
i would raise my hands and say i do
at times
not always
but not desperate
i guess people really need attachments with others rite?
haha
sometimes very pek chek
very fan niao
esp if u have someone u like
den u dont dare to confess blah blah
haha
aiyo so ma fan

haha
want to concentrate on other things really takes alot of discipline
etc etc
haha

oh wells
quote from GTE
THERE IS ONLY ONE GUY THAT IS WORTHY OF YOU
in view of females

haha
hai
i oso want to get attach
but not now
LOL

im so tired and i haven finish ppt slides
and got 8am class tmr!!!
GODDD
haha

impress

2008-12-08T02:05:00.000-08:00

lets see.....
i had a long tiring day
yet a funny day
no details will be disclosed but it has link to IMPRESSION and IMPRESSING
i was just wondering this to words come frm the same root word
IMPRESS ritey
but the meaning is different ritey?
so i decided to check dictionary.com

IMPRESSION
noun

1.a strong effect produced on the intellect, feelings, conscience, etc.
2.the first and immediate effect of an experience or perception upon the mind; sensation.
3.the effect produced by an agency or influence.
4.a notion, remembrance, belief, etc.,
5.an image in the mind caused by something external to it.
6.the act of impressing; state of being impressed.

IMPRESSING
verb

1.to affect deeply or strongly in mind or feelings; influence in opinion: He impressed us as a sincere young man.
2.to fix deeply or firmly on the mind or memory, as ideas or facts: to impress the importance of honesty on a child.
3.to apply with pressure, so as to leave a mark.

one will be easily confused by this 2 words
seems similar
but to me its different

impress people
people form an impression on you
let me ponder
my thought are incoherant haa
maybe im too tired haha!

anws all i know is that
ACTIONS need to be watched by self
dont wanna go ard and give people an opportunity to form unecessary impression
and spread things that aint true

random note:
haha
i loveeeed project mtg today even though i was tired
haha
love fammy and jo
and we webcam whored
LOL
pictures up soon
haha

and today is freezing cold
and im home alone
*boo*

2008-12-07T15:24:00.000-08:00

our night cycling plan failed
LOL
coz we went there an hour late
so we decided to hang ard
and try if any other shops were open
and they werent
so we went to watch soccer for abt an hr plus
haha
justin TALKSSSS ALOTTT! plus is alll crap la
LOL damn funny
den we were deciding whether to go jetty or jon's hse
and TADA
jon's hse was the decision
haha
oh man i was super zombie walking there
tired sial
sat downstairs
tried to slp CANT! super cold haha
talked to jon a little
den decided to go upstairs
and it rain suddenly so tin and wei
had to slp upstairs
LOL
now im vvv AWAKE
but i guess jon is half dead .....coz i slpt on his bed haha
damn shiok!
ha

anws too tired to wait for freaking bus 12
so took cab
and decided to pack my rm
which im gng to do after blogging
^^

i wanna be different
and i wanna protect and love myself moreeeee
haha
and be quieter and draw back to observe
yes i can do it haha
i dont wanna resemble any one
I WANNA BE ME!!!

2008-12-06T22:54:00.000-08:00

look at this baby's finger
super uber cuteeee
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHOO SHOO

2008-12-06T20:09:00.000-08:00

no matter how much i dislike
no matter how much i get frustrated over it
no matter how much i say im stopping it

it nv seems to come to past
is a cycle
maybe viscious
i dont know
*ARG*

all i know is that
this cycle has to stop
i just need conviction maybe?
strength?
to move away
~~~
haha
maybe?
*SRATCH HEAD*

now i got fear of two things
1.relationship
2. have a guy bestie

fool
i think i shld be lesbian better
LOL
sshh

maybe i m gng through this
is the result of being disconnected
faints haha
~~~

ssshhh....LOL

2008-12-06T09:25:00.000-08:00

i feel like laughing now
feel like sighing now
haha
everything is so funny right now
wat really is the truth
LOL
oh man

i suddenly just feel
i shld quieten down and draw back abit
sometimes silence is really golden
and distance helps

shake heads
i seriously feel like laughing

2008-12-06T07:06:00.000-08:00

ben and jerrys
is wat i need
a little comfort food
for the tired soul

a warm shower
to soothe the pain
and wash away
the tears i cry

a little guitar
to sing my feelings
and express how i feel

a little get-a-away
to escape reality
to hide away
and never come back

a little prayer
to cry loud
and tell my father
i need him

a little sleep
on my lovely bed
is wat i need
to close this day

a little "im here"
to be wisphered into my ear
to assure me that im nt alone

but all i really need
is to cry and run back to my Father
coz i think im pmsing real badly

LOL

2008-12-05T08:51:00.001-08:00

WTH haha

damn funny
i know im slow but
i love it
LOL

anyways IM LOVING MY EXTENSIONS
SO CHIOOOOOOOOOO

lol

2008-12-04T08:57:00.000-08:00

yesss

i simply love my class!!

today's class foto!!!

LOL

nowadays presentations are alllll sooo SUPER ! haha

more daring, more innovative, more creative

and our class ppl's minds are all polluted now

super pervertic class

think if u join u will understand why i say tat....

frens are impt to every being's life

ppl need relationships, need interaction

i believe every frenship that is form has a reason so

be it gd or bad

every frenships reveals to u wat society is

and also how self can be a giver rather den a taker

the very impt thing in frenship beside trust

is definately COMMUNICATION

nt just frenship

but as long as two or more ppl are involve

communication is v impt

unless we are all telepathic, which sadly we aint LOL!

so talk la

God give us mouths for wat...! haha

make each other understand

allow each other to stand by in times of need

be it frens of the same gender or different gender

note that different gender frens IS NOT EQUAL TO GF BF

grow up

and look deeper den the surface!

haha

agree?? haha

tmr gng to hospital with darling fren

pray can go back to sch in time haha!

and i realised that i have been using to words that start with F wrongly

1. f***

2. fetish

haha

funny~

i want to love u so let me love you?

2008-12-03T00:00:00.002-08:00

i want to love u so let me love you

so you are oh so special
haha

2008-12-03T00:00:00.001-08:00

maybe a nice new lappy for this year?
haha
my lappy fan spoil
sound DAMN IRRITATING!
omg
i want a small small lappy haha
^^

*hint hint*

maybe i shld save money haha

DR ABC

2008-12-02T06:09:00.000-08:00

DR ABC

Danger
Response

Airway
Breathing
Circulation

1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and 5 and
1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and 10 and
1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and 15 and
1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and 20 and
1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and 25 and
1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and 30 and

two breaths
[X5times]

reassess ABC

haha
BCLS
omg CAN TOTALLY FAINT LA!!!!!!!!!!!
the compression part
and ventilation
omg no stamina!
we wan save patient end up we die first
haha
yes is tat tough
BUT SUPER FUN!!!^^

THE CURSE OF THE BLUE CONTACT LENS

2008-12-01T07:19:00.000-08:00

i think my blue contact lens IS CURSEDDDDD
haha
seriously for the past 2 days tat i wore it
i was super moody FOR ABSOLUTELY NO REASON!!!
ya the mind blank
frens today ask me wat happen to me
so quiet
[means u will always hear my voice de haha]
and i have no idea

but now i conclude aft 2 days of wearing
3 things abt the lens!
1. it hurts like hell...seriously think my eyes treat it like a foreign body ha
2. it increase production of eye shit haha YUCKS! unglam la!!!
3. and it makes me moody thou the colour is so gorgeous

in conclusion:
I WILL STILL WEAR THEM!
haha

2008-11-30T06:17:00.000-08:00

oh man
got alot of reflection gng through my mind
like zoom zoom haha
but shallnt blog down
reflecting over frenship
over my life

anyways lets blog something happier!
manage to go out shopping and neoprint taking WITH JO, FAMMY AND SAM
yeaaa fun fun!!!!
den went to company ade see doctor
oh man!
and watch REC again
LOL!!
haha
im crazy!~

and on a random note
I LOVEEEE CORNFLAKES!!!!
YEAA
ya

WARNING: DO NOT COMPARE

2008-11-30T05:24:00.000-08:00

u do hear: how can everyone be unique?
if A is unique, B is unique and C is unique
then who is unique?
isnt unique
EXSISTING ONLY AS ONE
HAVING NO LIKE OR EQUAL
den where have uniqueness run too?

i seriously hate when people compare
is never fair
should always look at every one just as they are
theres always a SOMEONE BETTER THAN YOU thing
natural i agree
but stand in the shoes of those being compared to others
is not about low self esteem
is about everyone is different
thou it seems like its all the same
thats just superficial
a person is never build up base on things on the surface
a person is who she/he is by the things they go through
isnt it?

so pls do not go around comparing people
think about how you would feel if u were the one being brought to compare to others

and most imptly do not compare yourself to others
and their expectations
is always about yourself and how you view yourself
if u live your life base on being someone else
is quite pitiful rite
life is always difficult when you
always try to be someone else
opt to be yourself
your own style, your own character
dont let people dictate the way you live

can have role models
but pls do not be copycats
and compare yourself to others
it will never work

be yourself
knowing watever you have in you
is always your own
your own seed of potential^^

and i shall leave the topic now
haha
see i have nv been in a relationship before
but aft a breakup
isnt it right to move on?
throw away things that are in the past?
wats the point of keeping things that aint there anymore?
mmm
correct me
not forgetting merely moving on
no?
wats the point of holding to things that wont work out already?

today's my down day

2008-11-29T07:29:00.001-08:00

today i felt a little out of place
out of the norm
i have no single idea why
why my mind was blank half the time
oh man ;[

have you ever been in such a blank state?

i think i have been trying v hard to walk away from you
i want everything to be normal
but it seems like if i do
to others it may look like im nt trying at all
so tiring when everything cant go back to how it was before
i have no idea wat to say
no idea wat to comment
just listen and laugh
and wonder wat im thinking about
mmm
alone or lonely?
the latter is so scary
oh man i so regret everything about us
now its difficult
difficult~
*sobs*
it sucks to the core

blank state of mind
IS A VERY SCARY THING!
*shoo shoo*

i think im grumbling abt this matter
only coz im in a blank state of mind
haha
sad
and i just ate 2 choco choco cakes
OMG KILLLL MEEEEEEE
*signs*

2008-11-28T08:05:00.000-08:00

CLASS PHOTO!!!!
YEA AT LAST A NICE NICE ONE
AND ALL WEAR BLACK!!
yea

den have band performance today
woots!
OMG
suppppeerrr enjoy
singing is like everything haha
so happy!!!
felt so free
wasnt so scared when singing tgt
YEA
nessa, enjie,jon, ash ROCKS
yea
and seriously there are a lot of hidden talents!
now i feel like acting too!!!
ME ME!!
i can act BIMBO!
haha
fine i am one le
HA!

PAST. BE HAPPY

2008-11-27T07:17:00.001-08:00

hush hush
let go of the matter
dont dwell on it le
since its already done
theres nothing much can be done to salvage the issue
hush hush
i shall stop here
period
coz i have enuf of ur crap le

life is unfair
but i rather not complain abt how unfair it is
but say how blessed i am for being to wake up everyday
anyways HAD SOOOOO MUCH FUN TODAY!
omg presentation preparation WAS MADNESS
we chionged but really had fun
haha
think this sem really understood how impt it is to have frens/gd classmates ard u
IMPT to cherish them!!!
den had dinner with addie
enjoyed talking and manage to convince her to go see doctor
U WILL BE WELL DARL!!!^^
i love u
and had MUAY THAI
ROCKS!!!
omg
haha

GO BE HAPPY OK!

CRUSH

2008-11-27T00:53:00.001-08:00

I hung up
The phone tonight
Something happened
For the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush
What a rush
'Cause the possibility
That you would ever
Feel the same way
About me
It's just too much
Just too much
Why do I keep running
From the truth
All I ever think
About is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this can go
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really
Just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way you do
'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush
Ain't goin' away
Goin' away

Has it ever crossed
Your mind
When were hangin'
Spending time girl
Are we just friends
Is there more
Is there more
See it's a chance
We've gotta take
Cause I believe
That we can
Make this into Something
That will lastLast forever
Forever

2008-11-27T00:53:00.000-08:00

been having morning breakfast almost everyday with classmate outside lect hall
haha 2dollar meals

REC movie tic
evidencehaha
MUST WATCHHH
*promote*

anyways after yesterday
i just cant stand it man
when the world is soooo unfair
theres nothing one can do...
so pek cheking
why like that
nv meant for all this CRAP shit to happen
speechless
speechless
check ur attitude
check my attitude

gossip boy, js

2008-11-26T16:55:00.003-08:00

Hi love,
it's me again, the gossip boy!
Once again, B has been naughy in school.
She is so bimbo!

That's all for today,
XOXO, TILL THE NEXT TIME I BLOG.
:p

2008-11-26T16:55:00.001-08:00

i broke record this wk
everyday take cab to school
OMG kill me!!!
URGH
no money le

u have a freaking attitude problem
seriously
either u dont realise or u dont care
f***

2008-11-26T06:16:00.000-08:00

IS THE SHOW OF THE YEAR
OMG!
im nt sure abt twilight
but thus far THIS IS THE BESTTTT
OMG
went with fammy,sam,maine,gary,ying,jo,js and me
OMG
is not really horror but IS GROSS!!!!
infection from dog
can pass by saliva or bitten
DAMN SCARY
first time i screamed so much
and i grabbed js hand like real hard
haha
went out all ADRENALINE super HIGH!
omg haa

rating 4.9/5
the 0.1 is coz is use hand held camera den move a lot got headache
LOL!
but I SWEAR
WATCH IT OR U HAVE NV LIVE AT ALL
lol

2008-11-25T08:37:00.000-08:00

21 DAYS!!
17 DEC my special day
WOOOTTTSS
like at last i will be legal
LOL
haha
rmb to get prezzie kays!

as u know
you can give without loving BUT U CAN NV LOVE WITHOUT GIVING!

i know u love me
shall review the wishlist
haha
oh plus can get christmas prezzie at the same time too

LOL
am i too greedy?
LOL

2008-11-24T07:47:00.000-08:00

in times like this
all i can do is to pray and lift every single thing to God
theres are things u just can control
like LIFE AND DEATH
you never know when you will be taken away
you never know when you will be struck with an illness
prevention is definately the BEST
if only when things happen den we do something about it
it will all be too late le
too late

is always now...

GOD
im scared
im actually vvv afraid
right now
just tat no one knows.....

anyways just realised both my parents are turning 50 next yr!!!!!!
OMG
i got a shock
i keep thinking they are still at 47
LOL!;[
ya
time is really flying now~

and did i mention on sunday me maine and jo went flyer to support fammy
and on the way we saw 3 LAMBOS!!
OMG
white black and yellow [i tink]
my focus was on the BLACK
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
gorgeoussssssss
haha
den aft tat i think got one porsche
damn niceee
OMG!
the engine sound of lambo is damn nice la
haha

byeee

tower of refuge

2008-11-22T16:37:00.000-08:00

my tower of refuge
where i go in times of needs
my tower of refuge
knowing that you wont chase me out
my tower of refuge
knowing that in a world so imperfect, only in you i find perfect
my tower of refuge
is where love flows like an abundant river, that never has an end
my tower of refuge
you know how many times i wanted to cry, but you made me strong
my tower of refuge
knowing that you will protect me when im in my valley
my tower of refuge
i know you heal all the hurts and the lonliness

the God i know
never fails when all else does
the God i know
is my tower of refuge

2008-11-22T08:27:00.000-08:00

i think its really over le?
wat can i say?
everything feels so funny right now
wanna talk but dont know wat to say
and i have a weird character
i just dont like it but i dont know wat to do
hai~

DESTROY YOUR YESTERDAY TO GET YOUR TMR

sometimes there are some things that you JUST HAVE TO LET GO
cause knowing that there really is some thing/someone better out there
we always live in the current
maybe i shld take a further look instead
short term is SHORT, temporary
one will lead to another...

its a very contridicting feeling
right now
for me
i dont think the other party is ever bothered at all......

anyways i shall stop being sooooo emo here
is AC WK!
and is ending
like OMG so fast
been really FRUITFUL
but also vv tiring la~
but is a good wake up call for asia
haha

soon soon~
must be ready

2008-11-21T09:22:00.000-08:00

have you ever experience this sort of irony?
have you ever made a decision that seemed so easy to others yet so tough for u?
have you ever hated a person yet love at the same time?
have you ever cry yet rejoice over a decision made?
have you ever feel losing one=losing whole world?

is at this point i know
human cant fill
an emptiness when one loses

im rejoicing yet im crying
but i know when one window is shut at me
doors will be opened up instead
just wait and see

i have a very weird analogy of what i
feel
im like in a situation like a menstrual
cycle
the bleeding process is like the crying
process...pain hurt tears uncomfortable blah blah
but aft one wk the period stops just like how i
know the pain tears hurts will go in time
and u dont die from mthly menses rite! so same
losing this one person WILL NV EQUAL TO LOSING UR WHOLE WORLD/DIE..so silly to
think this way....knowing that aft menses ur body has it way to replenish the
loss blood..by producing more RBC or by the diet..
so same may lose one fren now but u must know
the there are people ard you that will be there.....no one shld ever feel like a
LONER.

21NOV FRIDAY 2008
i made a decision to chose wisely
and stick to the decision!

YESS!
f words no more
LOL
too addictive LOL
too crude haha

2008-11-21T09:07:00.000-08:00

my current favourite worship song

when the stage is bear tonight
theres no one else
just you and me

when the curtains close behind
theres no pretense
im on my knees

i will lay down my life
for a love sacrifice
you gave to me
its all because of you
all because of you

the God i know
righteous and holy
the God i know
faithful and true
the God i know
my tower of refuge
hearts are healed
christ revealed

the God i know
light of the city
the God i know
strengthens the weak
the God i know
your heart beats within me
as you are, so are we

this is my cry
my one desire
more of you
more of you

knowing that no matter wat happens
good or bad
sometimes theres pretense with people
we hid things that we dont want ppl to know
but in front of Him
i know i can lay aside all my pretense
and know i can be just who i am

moving on
moving on
IM MOVING ON
breaking away from the old
and staying to this promise to God
moving on to find better frens
moving on for a better future

back to the original purpose

IDENTITY ; SUEE'S MULTIPLE PERSONALITY DISORDER.

2008-11-20T20:11:00.000-08:00

HEY~
This is Charmaine blogging for SUEE!!!!!!!!!
She's the biggest BIMBO in class!!!!
Always bullying others with her bimbotic language.
I'm ONE OF THE VICTIM!!!!!!
Hello, this is FAMFAM.YITING.
I'm a sophiscated lady living in my own era &suee's just my another identity.
Next target is suee's cat. MEOW! i'm going to kill the cat, MEOWMEOW, *slashs*
YO, JS the rocker here!
I'm a handsome rocker living in the body, and Charmaine, Yiting and Suee is all the fakes.
I'm the REAL and MAIN identity in the body.
Remember me always and I'll remember you. :D
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Hi, i'm the real suee speaking. all the rest are fakers despite trying so hard to convince the others that they are not. But look, i'm the real suee because i've long hair, over 100 strands of extensions + highlights. wearing a black specs and now, i'm clipping up my fringe. Currently wearing a hawk's ring and wearing high KILLER heels that can easily poke people's ~~penis~~/ burst female's ~~pussy~~. Whahahaha! I'm wearing a knee length leggings that is like.. sooooooooooooooooo HOT! woo. hahah, burning fire in me. hahaha!
now, enough of description of myself to prove that i'm the real suee, I've succeed.
&now, I'm on my way to kill all those fakers. MUAHAHAHAHA. smell my ass!

with love,
Best regards,
SUEE.

- blogged by IDENTITY.

2008-11-20T09:42:00.000-08:00

i had a choice
either to opt scolding f and showing hatred
or to see the situation in another positive perspective and think of what i can do

and i chose the second one
aft a phone call
and thk God of it!
other wise rite now u see my blog full of f word
and hatred
which WONT SOLVE THE PROBLEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok now i feel so encouraged and i know wat path to take on
so i shall slp now
tmr fully packed

STRENGTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YEAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!

2008-11-19T09:07:00.000-08:00

when i got home i got a BIG shock of my life
i looked into the mirror and realised my eyes look like it has been punched!
LOL
seriously black eyeshadow DONT SUIT ME ;[
*boo*

first day of AC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BIG BANG!
haha super fun
went church early for choir
omg all dress until super niceeeeeeee
LOL
haha
i cant wait for sat to wear my dress
YEAH

ok den bath lo
den had another shock
MY FACE OMG!
like mine field of pimples OMG
i wanna tear this skin of NOWWWW
HOWWWWWWWw?
den nxt few days must put makeup
*boos*
pray aft AC GOD will heal my mind field
LOL!

AC svc1 sermon
moving into the 2nd and 3rd space
being relevant!
RELEVANT!!!
and not crude
i keep saying fuck this few days
haha

anyways decided not to waste money now
sonce i got extra mouth to feed this wk
and everyday go hm late!
so rushed aft macs
was kinda provoked today aft svc
good or bad i dont know

coz all i know is that i deserve better this all this crap
i do!
not to be used as and when
the worst is u dont seem to notice
and i dont say anything
;[
GOD help me do sth abt this crap

SCHOOL AND AC TMR
and i know VE has a lot of THINGS to settle
CRAP
GOD I NEED STRENGTH

2008-11-18T19:11:00.000-08:00

hai
i woke up feeling upset
that i rmbed wat i dreamt about becoz i didnt like the content of it
and i lay on my bed having the wanting to leave
i dont know if i can

and i seriously cant wait for AC!!
i need this breakthrough point
esp whem on monday
i have bio prac 10-12
MH presentation 12-1
skills retest 1-2
seriously i have no idea how to survive the next monday
plus got choir till 10pm

i need STRENGTH to do things
to put things away
to prioritize things

GOD
i hate that dream

2008-11-18T03:56:00.000-08:00

i seriously wanna scold the f word cans
I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO PISSED EVER!
today had skills practical
OMGGGGGGGGGGG
fine i dont deny i didnt read up more
but i knew all the concepts and principles
but the freaking teacher got me confused by all his talking

anws didnt happen all to me
my fren got it worst
he has a FREAKING PROBLEM CANS
nv even test her a single skill DEN MARK HER FAIL
like WTF
and ask those qns
SO IRRITATING

do u know wat ever we learn from our skills lect is different frm other lects
DEN IS FREAKING NT FAIR AT ALL
THE MARKING SYSTEM IS UNFAIR
we definately know our stuff
but coz the way we learn is different frm the way the assessor teaches
DOESNT FREAKING MEANS ITS WRONG
notes are inconsistent and jumbled up super confusing
and the way lectures teach ARE ALL DIFFERENT!
u can go compare la
and how dare the assessor hurry us will doing skills,skipping points, failing students without a FREAKING REASON
HELLLOO~
is OUR GRADE THAT WILL BE AFFECTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fish!
i cant believe man

freaking school
in this kind of learning envir
how to produce good nursing students
F

pissed off
nvm
anws i realised im becoming more crude
sorry bestie if i was rude to u
super pissed at tat moment!
must watch my mouth
*piak*

2008-11-17T06:19:00.000-08:00

FOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLL
omg
theres this teacher
who walked into the lift
i didnt know she was looking at me
den she asked another teacher who was in the lift
is she a nursing student?
den i look at her
den the other teacher look at me and replied yes
den the FREAKING teacher shaked her head and said your hair very nice hor
[note there was scarasm in her tone]
den i just like smile smile den she shake head say WHAT A PITY
i was like WTF inside of me
WTH la
this is called STEREOTYPING...with nurses we dont practice right!
just because my hair is blonde at the side DOESNT FREAKING EQUALS TO THAT IM A PIA KIA
I MEAN LIKE HELLOOOO~
and maybe u didnt know that its TEMPORARY
the shocking portion was when she said WHAT A PITY
*off la

sorry for lang....im seriously pissed
i hate people who has no life
and just has to criticise people

if u unhappy den say it nicely
i dont even know her and i NV EVEN STEP ON HER TAIL
like WTH
sooooo insulted today

i know cant have colourful coloured hair
but is just for the wk
hai
i have the right to be piss by her tone and words right
OMG

ok study
tmr test
PRAYYYYYY dont get her as teacher
otheerwise
she cfm stereotype again

*breath in breath out*

ok sometimes i REGRET wat i do and say
and i hate it when certain things happen
and wish i can take it all back
did u know tat everything u do has a leading stimuli
and tracing back is like FOREVER

wat if this didnt happen?

2008-11-16T06:07:00.000-08:00

dont say i didnt warn
but im currently on a i-feel-pissed-off-for-no-reason-and-i-feel-like-ranting mood
which is real bad
i have like a lot of things running through my mind
all in a blur
i wanna RANT
but no idea watsoever of where to start
*pull hair*

ok i want to complain about my future
of how FREAKING scared yet im not worried at all
[an irony]
about not being able to be attached/married/family etc BECAUSE of my job as a nurse
u see arh nurses work SHIFTS rite...den like tat super ma fan
scared esp at nite not ard....husband or watever haha u know! affair
*gosh*
:P ok i think too much!
anws u get wat i mean
nursing is sucha demanding job and im like gng to work once i grad!
den like tat how!!! tell me LOL
sad
btw i know i think too much
and i think is super funny

nxt....omg i so random
but i HATE TWO TIMERS
omg...not that it happen to me or anything
but i so randomly thought of it
[well linking to my first rant]
haha
OMG fool
GOD FORBIDS IT MAN!!!!
*AMEN*
scary how man can be so scary
*kill!*

and i seriously HATE man who play with girls
not sexually but as in emotionally mentally tat kind
aiya dont know how to explain

AIYA WATEVER
*LOL*

im so retarded
and i have LOADS of things to finish
haha

i cant wait for AC and BAND AUD!
OMG
!!!YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaa
like totally~

oh i suddenly love nickleback's far away lyrics
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted I wanted you to stay'
Cause I needed I need to hear you say That I love you
I have loved you all along And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing 'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it Hold on to me and,
never let me go

2008-11-15T09:12:00.000-08:00

btw nowadays blogskin skins are super duper UGLY!
buang
seriously
im so sad cant find nice skins to change!
*itchy*

back to topic
oh man
alot of ppl are falling sick!!!!
and real bad!!
MUST TAKE CARE!!!!!
darl nessa, justin, jeffery, zachary, darl wei
!!!
must take care
watch wat u eat and rest more
vvv impt!

ppl fall sick
when good times are abt to happen!
*true true*

LOVES!

2008-11-14T08:38:00.000-08:00

tired!!!!~~
faints
tired physically,emotionally,mentally!
omg
haha
been running up and down
doing this and that
having loads of things due to do
yet haven do!
been hanging out too much
been worrying too much

hai
sucha burden
i need peace
i need time alone

like a burden
i must learn to put you down
otherwise i know one day i will run out of fuel
to keep going on, emotionally
i shall nt breakdown!!!!

my life is MY life
not controlled by you
take it or leave it~

2008-11-13T08:27:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JS

AT LAST UR ARE 18

can go pub legally le

unlike me ;[

haha

i love you coz ur are retarded!

ANWS!!! IM SUPER ELATED NOW!!!!

MUST REALLY THK GOD FOR MY FIRST EVER BREAKTHROUGH IN SINGING!!

and really thk nessa for being sucha WONDERFUL singing buddy!

I LOVEEEEEEE UUUUU

haha

omg i was super super NERVOUS!

and super malu

!!!

URGH

i can do better

thks darlings for ur support

reealllyy needed it!!!!^^

LOVESSSSSSSSSSSS

now i need to pray for more exposure!!!!^^

i dont wanna waste it away

now i regret not joined ORION!!!

FOOL

maybe nxt yr?

hopefully

stupid PRCP haha

so ponned sch a little LOL

go find justin with jon

go try out I RMB U

with jon

MAN next is 28NOV

GRANDSHOW DOWN!!!! WILL BE A BIGGG NITEEEE

shall invite classmates!!

pray they cancel shisha tat day

LOL

*hint hint*

LOL

first prac and only one LOL at wei's hse

along with NESSA,ENJIE,ZACHARY

and me haha

first band!!!!!!!!!!!!!!^^

AMAZING HAR!!! haha

watch out for us!

ok study pharm!

faints

2008-11-12T07:40:00.000-08:00

UP DOWN UP DOWN UP DOWN THE ROLLER COASTER HAHA
you only have ONE life...so live it like a roller coaster!

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~
HAHA
the different phrases of life
go through them FULLY
soak with the exp
but do rmb to put these exp to good use
and see that LIFE SERIOUSLY DONT SUCKS
even though there are burdens to carry
HA!

had skills theory
skipped lect and studied with melia and js
haha
the paper was fine
just tat i could really rmb well
*boo*
so irritating
*pull hair*

im so tired!
but sooo many countless things to do!

work work work
*faint on floor*

2008-11-11T07:02:00.000-08:00

能不能 by jason and landy wen

能不能就對著我說愛我　
能不能就陪著我天長地久
不要對我若即若離　
讓我傷心淚流能不
能就對著我說愛我　
能不能就陪著我　
一直到最後
從今以後剩下的路　
要你陪我走

oh man! im addicted to this song beside nickylee's XIANG TAI DUO
niceee kays
haha

能不能就對著我說愛我　

2008-11-11T04:19:00.001-08:00

i seriously just had the mostttttttt retardddddd convo ever with bestie
ok most of our convo are retarded and lammeee coz bestie is king of lamness
daddy fong
can u imagine OMG
LOL
anws
skip abt bestie
sch is like pack! HAHA
just have one presentation over!
AN...i guess we did quite well!! HURRAY!....kinda happy
BUTTTTT fool tmr got SKILL THEORY
URGH!! all the stupid IV all....and nursing responsibility all
OMG
sooo much and i have yet to go back and study
LOL

but sch nowadays are more fun
coz of classmates!!
and im the official retarded bimbo and i love it LOL
anws love joey, mama, fafa, YITING, JS and MAINE
omg thks js for mp3 times during lecturess
hha
and YEA
im gng to bath

*smelly*

2008-11-09T08:45:00.000-08:00

Ecclesiastes 3
A Time for Everything

There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

and my timing sucks
i have loads of skills to study and i have no idea
how to do wkbk!
kill me
oh man ;[

2008-11-09T07:08:00.000-08:00

i feel so MESSY
so messy URGH
life suddenly in a mess
feeling so pek chek now cans...........
fool
coz recently i have become too complacent and tooooo lazy
yes lazy i am
hai
i have a lot of things to finish up
yet im procrastinating
AND I SIMPLY CANT STAND IT
1. im wasting precious time
2. im not prioritizing well
3. im just too lazy
4. distracted by an invisible force and it sucks
BIG TIME

and i went drinking AGAIN
with only one day interval
fri den sunday again
i think im mad
siao on haha
wait i get beer belly
LOL
fool

tests, projects, hmwork
wish i could throw them all away into the bin
but i simply cant
i wanna go out and play
but i simply cant
i wanna get good grades, get into director's list
but im not studying hard enuf...instead im ponning classes and listen to mp3 during lect
OMG
i deserve to be killed
seriously

MAN
life's a mess rite now
not the best time to provoke me
or date me out

period
and i shld stop blogging
too oftenly
;[

is soooo difficult to find good frens nowadays
if there are they are already taken
;[
i need a fren
physically i can see and talk to
emotionally i can relate too
mentally i can improve with
spiritual i can pray with
not one who competes with me or pulls me down
or distracts me

URGH
GOD
so pek cheking
haha

2008-11-08T21:14:00.000-08:00

SINGING
is a passion
is a determination
is a message
is a conviction
is all abt the emotions and feeling
is like literature
is like an addiction

dont look down on the power of influence that lies in music, lyrics, singing

i really need a breakthrough
in this season a breakthrough in my singing!
something new
i know is already there
URGH so pek chek!!
i need to do something more
i need to grow from glory to glory
YEA!!~ haha

after asia conf intensive training
LOL
stopping for 3 wk not equal to slacking time
haha

buusssyyy~

2008-11-07T20:21:00.000-08:00

I LOVE FAM,JO,JS&SAM
omg!!!!!!!!!
SUPER FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN haha
my first time
plus gng underage
haha
went clarke quay first
tried FASHIONBAR but got "kicked" out
haha js super funny coz his bdae only one wk away
so he told the person at fashionbar
end up still have to leave
LOL
WE HAVE NO WHERE TO GO!
ahah
suggested coffee club....still club ma haha
and i wanted to drink milk LOL
anyways so decided to go over to boat quay
eski bar
haha
manage to stay there
first had JACK DANIELSwcoke haha
eh is quite nice i like it haha
and play 5-10-15
LOL
OMG IM PRO!!
haha kept slapping JS LOL!!!!
omg and JS high vvvvvv fast can bully him
den we all went mad and played animal game! NV BEEN SO FUN PLAYING ANIMAL GAME CANSSSS
LOL
omg

drinks: jacks wcoke, bombay sth haha, slippery nipple, tiger, tequila
omg i really love jack haha
the only drink i didnt try was tequila shot
i scared!
LOL

oh mannnnnnnnnn super funnnnnnnn
WANNA GO AGAIN!

btw i didnt manage to order milk and i was still sober haha

2008-11-06T07:56:00.000-08:00

I just can't believe you're gone,
Still waiting for morning to come
Wanna see if the sun will rise
Even without you by my side
When we had so much in store
Tell me what is it I'm reaching for
When we're through building memories
I'll hold yesterday in my heart, in my heart

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made,
They can take the music that we never play
All the broken dreams, take everything,
Just take it away but They can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away but They can never have yesterday

You always choose to stay
I should be thankful for every day
Heaven knows what the future holds
Or at least how the story goes
I never believed until now
I know I'll see you again I'm sure
No it's not selfish to ask for more
One more night one more day
One more smile on your face
But they can't take yesterday

thought our days would last for ever
But it wasn't our destiny'
Cause in my mind we had so much time
But I was so wrong
No I can believe that
I can still find the strength in the moments we made
I'm looking back on yesterday

I just can't believe you're gone,
Still waiting for morning to come
Wanna see if the sun will rise
Even without you by my side

have u ever feel that u are easily SOFT HEARTED and easily taken ADVANTAGE of?
sometimes i feeeelll sooo taken advantage of
they say one can give without loving
but one cant love without giving
sometimes i will do coz i know that wat frens are for
but sometimes to the extend where i feel so used and if not necessary den throw aside
and fren got mood den come no mood just ignore
do u feel this way too?
;[
is so irritating
was that just a complaint?
HAHA

nvm
MUAY THAI FIRST LESSON WITH ADDIE!!!!!!!!!!
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
is suppppppeeeeeeeerrrrrrrr FUN!
learn the basic movements
OMG!
damn COOLLLLLLLLLL
haha!!!!
want more muay thai classes!!!!!!
RAWKSSSSSSSSS

2008-11-05T09:19:00.000-08:00

tired~
bed is calling me to zzz
but here i am blogging
LOL
im a freak i know
LOL
had a super super long bus journey home
197 the last bus...btw is was 5mins late!!!
ZZZ
super cold..and i found out they like nv off the bus engine leh
mmmm was super cold and the ticket machine was on
haha
slept awhile
watched tyrabanks
saw jie,bin and fren
sms bin darling
found where the hell is haji lane
saw a v different side of north bridge road
and almost fell in the bus

had bin's bbq today
super enjoy..thou a little sad...shallnt say
and there was this super cuteee young mei mei haha
huixian who is 12YEARS OLD!!!!
ZZZZ
but i tell u she vvvv smart and can talk one lo
sent her hm along with bestie
even he "give up" on her
LOL
the whole walk was super funny
btw we walked from ECP to bedok interchange!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fool~
haha

tired~
ZZZZZ

bed calling

PS: MUAY THAI STARTS TMR!!!

2008-11-04T07:39:00.000-08:00

i dont know how should i be feeling now?
is like a blank feeling
yet theres something
haha

anyways i realise i can be sucha little girl
im vvvv happy-go-lucky
carefree, i hate routine and work!
FOOL
but when im in serious matter
im real grave
like the world offended me
LOL
and i get kinda rude here and there
i guess im an irony myself

everything seems an irony to me
maybe coz i "love" the word IRONY too much

*pukes*

2008-11-03T07:23:00.000-08:00

yes hotel 626
played in school at 9am!
with ping jo maine
haha!! super funny!
seems scary rite
but actually is quite retarded
LOL
and the stage at the mental person
DIFFICULT!
cant solve that!!!!
PEK CHEK
haha
go play at www.hotel626.com

haha

2008-11-03T07:16:00.000-08:00

ok i must apologise about my blog
there are times i write things in the spur of moment
at the point of how i feel
i guess thou blog is a public thing
somethings just cant be written on it ritey?

i mean thou is mine
people are also reading

i guess i apologise if i did write anything that u didnt like
on my blog

a little review on my blog
a little reflection of my blog

cam-whorepics,crap,random,sch,selfstuff
haha
tatsall
somethings are just too sensitive and too rude to be written here

^^
sorry man

2008-11-02T22:50:00.001-08:00

{sweet galore}

2008-11-02T05:57:00.000-08:00

just come back from dinner
at WERNER's OVEN
german restaurant at siglap there
the food is YUMMYYY!!!
haha
seriously love the dessert haha

but before send gor gor going camp
at tampines
haha
tell u LOADS of army boys waiting at the bus interchange
got a shock you know!!
and how i envy him
haha
why
i know go army SUFFER like hell
but hey look on the bright side
in army wat matters is THE TOUGHEST SURVIVES
haha
anyways back to pt that u get to LOSE WEIGHT
i meant LOADS
get TONING OF MUSCLES
get KNOWLEDGE of all those war stuff army stuffblah blah

the main thing is lose and tone!
JUST WAT I NEED
LOL

die haven do work
ciao~

2008-11-02T01:23:00.000-07:00

BIMBO
or commonly known as dumb blonde
without the brains
but why is there a bimbo accent!
haha
LOL

btw im bimbo-ish WITH BRAINS
dont try to debate with me!
haha

like watever~

2008-11-01T11:10:00.000-07:00

this two are my all time fav vids!!
well plus guitars and LV ad
haha

2008-11-01T09:15:00.000-07:00

prov 13:12
Hope deferred makes the heart sick,
but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.

how many times have ur hopes been deferred?
how many times have u wished for sth and nv came through?
do u ask when is my breakthrough gonna come?

definately different
today tat is
change in routine
change in envir
change within

first guitar lesson with ENJIE! the pro pro-er pro-est guitarist
*LOL*
learnt KKT [i will fly] and DEPTHS OF UR LOVE
must practise!!! i will i will im a gd girl
anws really enjoy
had jie delano and jon too
*btw i was the only girl there aint i cool or wat!*
jkjk~

den ok i served as per normal
ok not as per normal
choir is always to minister to congregation
but sometimes when the choir dont sing
only WL and congre
i tell u is v different standing at the stands and learn
i oso get ministered, just like today haha

den svc was different cause is ARISE AND BUILD wk
i seriously have no idea how i will be able to give all
BUT! i believe I WILL BE ABLE TO !
and the tithe machine! OMG kill me
haha didnt manage to give
coz ATM is think its damaged;[
*boos*

den dinner @ expo food court
played guitar KKT with DELANO
SUPER FUN to play the song tgt
and make mistakes and play again
i really enjoyed!
must to it again kays

den when HALL 8 for TIPS AND STUFF filming
LOL
omg btw tips and stuff is my church's vid programme
featured wkly and all ard the world
watch out for me i may be on it!!!!!!!!!!LOL
few cgs went as CALEFARES!!!
haha

den HM SWEET HM
man im tired

and things are definately different
one last difference
* wasnt ard
haha
i know im quite evil
but u must know if im softhearted i know i will be a toy again
haha
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

watever

2008-10-31T19:37:00.000-07:00

oh man i cant believe
im will be missing the most impt svc of the year
building fund svc

am in a delimma
plus no reply

2008-10-30T08:41:00.000-07:00

i realise i can be quite mean
and rude
haha
if i say drop
and when i meant it
i really drop all the way
and can get irritated easily haha
mean rude
haha
oh man

fool

2008-10-30T05:29:00.000-07:00

ok ok a proper and better post
today had sch as usual
oh meet cheryl tang [sec sch mate] on the way to sch
chatted abit and realised a lot ppl frm my sec class 3E1 n 4E1 are in nyp
melissa,peishan,waisum,rachel,amelia,cheryl,jolene,adeline
den aft tut went jogging with joey!
oh man dieeesss haah coz suddenly the leg bone pain is back!!!
NOOOOOOOOOOO~
den anws went to the playgrd with maine, fam, mama, rabia
and played swing!!! LOL
super fun den xan and fafa joined ltr!!^^
took real retarded fotos [when i get them shall upload]

anws i really like the way dorothy ng teaches
is vvv rare to get this kind of teachers
makes learning more fun and fruitful
rather den plain talking talking talking and scolding scolding
seriously in this generation the second method doesnt and WONT work no more
rite!
haha

den decided to pon abnormal psycho
*ssshhh*
to go sem to register for muay thai
btw if u wanna join anything in CC
must pay either CASH or CHEQUE
LOL
coz i didnt know ended up had to take bus back to sun plaza
which btw i waited 20mins for 882
kill me
i almost died LOL!
*ok i didnt*

SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!MUAY THAI!!
to lose to tone and to defend
tats my purpose for learning
they didnt have pilates on a nice time slot
LOL
so YEA

note: to do pharmaco bk, bulletin board, stop procrastinating, and stop over eating=spend lesser money
*bang bang*

2008-10-30T05:01:00.000-07:00

haha
happy happy soul
cfm joining muay thai le
LOL!!
WOOTS!
nxt thurs start
and with addie
CANT WAIT!

but im kinda broke already
*bang*

2008-10-29T00:16:00.002-07:00

ok just like a few mintues ago i blogged that
i feel like joining muay thai but no one go with me right
guess wat I GOT MY MUAY THAY PARTNER LE!!!!!!!!!!
thks addie
omg
and now left registering!
oh man only 9 spaces left
!!
CHIONG haha

im on cloud nine 9

2008-10-29T00:16:00.001-07:00

haha RANDOM POST:

I WANNA GO LEARN MUAY THAI!
IS LIKE 830 AT SEM CC
can totally go aft sch
LOL

shld i?
im like so afraid to go alone
haha

2008-10-28T09:04:00.000-07:00

and i still haven change blogskin
i hate the black backgrd
coz i cant find the one i want
*fool*
haha
and im sucha a bimbo
and im so use to talking bimbo
!
haha
i know i know im irritating
i cant help it
><

2008-10-28T05:15:00.000-07:00

and this is where i need to be

i need to find peace

i need to find God

right now

in this period

everytime i decide to step out

i struggle at that very first step

and it sucks the most

coz u urself dont even know wat this emotion/feeling is

and u cant tell anyone abt it

know wat i mean?

it sucks

i need comfort and peace

right now

i just need to be alone

without u around me

but at the same time it hurts

thou we didnt have anything bt us

*FIGHTING!!*

2008-10-28T05:04:00.000-07:00

oh man i seriously shld stop moaning abt how pathetic
i am right now
haha
and stop blogging redundant things
i have been slacking sooo much
better start my pharmaco today!
and i seriously hate this blogskin
so aft i bath i shall change

watch out!
LOL
;[

2008-10-27T08:34:00.000-07:00

oh man GOOOODDDDDDD!!!
pull me away like now!
i decided
but now im struggling to continue pulling away!!!!!!!!!!
*faints*
i have no idea why im missing like hell
even when its NTH AT ALL!
*melts*

chants: GOD GOD GOD GOD
save me frm myself sia haha

thou i hate now
i guess theres always a reason for everything done
be it good or bad
now innocence is tested!
ROARS!
I CAN OVERCOME IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-27T06:47:00.000-07:00

im sure 8 out of 10 people
they are able to sing
so wat makes singing a talent now?
wat makes it unique!

today had vocals with bel
i had loads of fun singing with emotions
feeling the song and the lyrics

the difference between a normal singer and a excellent singer
is by the emotions put into the song everytime they sing
music definately moves our emotions, feelings, moods, thoughts
remind us of things that happen...good or bad
happy times, sad times
that wat music lyrics does

was prac BECAUSE OF YOU by kelly clarkson
man i tell u is like sooo difficult right now
need feelings, diction, breath
i almost die today
haha
but was so fun coz i really broke through today
AND IM SUPER GLAD
my voice may nt be like nessa's or bel's
but im glad i broke through of my rigidness
and im soo gonna move on
2 yrs wait and see kays!!!

singer with feelings

2008-10-26T08:50:00.000-07:00

I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us doesn't seem right these days
Life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try,
somehow the plan is always rearranged
Its so hard to say, but I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be okay

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here;
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this world someday,

But at least for now,
I gotta go my own way.
Don't wanna leave it all behind,
But I get my hopes up and watch them fall everytime
Another color turns to gray
And its just too hard to watch it all slowly fade away.
I'm leaving today cause
I've gotta do what's best for me,
You'll be okay

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here;
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this world someday,
But at least for now,
I gotta go my own way.

I GOTTA GO MY OWN WAY

the only reason im doing so
is cause i dont wanna waste away my youth
been struggling a little recently cause of u
and i know i just didnt want to let u go
i just decided to live on in denial tat i can change u
and make u a happier person
but im soo wrong
is not me who will change u
but God and yourself
u must understand how painful it has been
maybe u dont see coz ur heart is too full of other ppl
and all this time i tried my best
but i know i wanna be who i am now

it took today for God to smack it right in my face
wat i have been denying all this while
so i know that now is not the right time right place
is just not right
and gwyn said what belongs to u will eventually return to u
no matter wat
i know i have to leave it behind
i need to put it down
is really difficult for me
but i just have to

i know u have a bright future ahead of u
and i just wanna see u reach it in ur youth
not wasting ur time
dwelling in ur weakness
move on
u gotta leave ur past if u want a better or even the BEST! from God
in His plan....not urs^^

jia you
always love u
my fren

oh man seriously sounds like im breaking up
BUT IM NOT!! coz nt even in any r/s
LOL
come on lets wake up and face life boldly
why waste time doing things that has no purpose
like our frenship..if ur purpose is just play and treat me hot/cold whenever u like!
im sorry to say i dont want it anymore!!

today aft talking
i feel soooo much lighter
still pondering over it here and there
overall i know wat im suppose to do le
haha
i gotta go my own way
for a better future ahead!!!!!!

anyways i was just thinking abt why qns
sometimes i qn myself
why was i even born into this world? [when i was younger]
why cant i be as pretty as her?
why cant i sing as well as her?
why cant i be born into a better family?
why cant i be richer?
vwhy VWHY VWHY!! haha
but i know and i know i may nt be the best now
but wait and see
im still on the MOST! EXCITING JOURNEY EVER!!

lalala~
better go bath
LOL