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ANNABEL BLYTHE TAN SU EE
im everything you want!HAHA
vampire lover
miss chatterbox
miss retarded
miss bimbo with brains
child at heart
silly
PARAMORE FAN!!
happy-go-lucky
sing, photography, jog, music, guitar
chill, pool, shopaholic, coffee,cakes
random, loud, ticklish, irritating
books, clouds, artyfarty
student, NYP, christian N337, ex-GT, MZ
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Sunday, August 31, 2008 6:59 AM
busy

BUSY!!!!!!!
will blog maybe sunday
alot of updates!!!!!!!!!!
[:



Saturday, August 30, 2008 9:02 AM
addie the perviee!!

LOL
had a chat with addie the perviee haha

i wish i could type all coz is super retarded but ya
and and!! my lappy cant screenshot *wth!*
sorry haha

addie: i want to have a gay fren now!
...
....
....
addie: u can sleep with them and no one can say anything cuz they are GAY
su: lol
addie: true merrr, its like u can sleep topless with ur les partner and they cannot say much cuz both of u are girls who just happen to like sleeping topless
and addie states she is wise haa

su: *telling abt fren*
addie: but u see with a gay fren u can touch anywhere u want HAHAHHAHAHAHA
su: omg, adeline why u wanna touch arh!!!!!!!! haha...nvm go male cub work can touch till u are shuang!! LOL
addie: duwan, those nt v nice
su: LOL
addie: i need young specimens!!
by the way it seems she is doing some exp.
LOL

ok this is good fren addie the previe!!
dedicated to u adeline!!
LOL
loves



8:07 AM
open up my eyes to the things unseen

DON'T WANNA WALK THIS ROAD ALONE
CAUSE I KNOW YOU
ARE THE BEST OF ME

AND I WON'T DO IT ON MY OWN
CAUSE IN YOU I FOUND
MY DESTINY

THE ROAD IS LONG
THE VALLEY'S DEEP
THE
OCEAN'S WIDE IN FRONT OF ME

BUT GOD SAVED THE DAY
JESUS YOU'RE THE WAY
THE TRUTH, THE LIGHT
THE HOPE FOR ALL MANKIND

BUT GOD SAVED THE DAY


in u i found my destiny!

standing on the stage
u asked me
u showed me again
u reminded me
God indeed open up my eyes to the things unseen
to the things that haven come to past!
u show me wat i have always been dreaming abt
to sing for you!

today i was so convicted to chase after my dream
to become a worship leader
one day
i will fulfil this
my destiny
faith faith faith
faith to believe!!
faith is the key man!!
hahaha
ok now the next question is how and where
shall find out tmr!!!
muhaha
definately not easy, look at how big the choir is and where am i
BUT!! no fear! no doubt! i will rise up
coz i believe in God and myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


PS: im angry with myself for missing the chance to be GT zone BV!!! coz i doubted myself
URGH!!!
GOD another door please?
i promise to grab hold and nv let go
LOL!!!

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Friday, August 29, 2008 9:39 PM
cliques

seriously i hate groups with a group
aeriously it sucks haha
so random rite but ya
but i guess its human nature to find people who are similar to u
and just draw closer to them haha
u cant blame
people need relationships
need interaction with people who are similar to self as well haha
there is where the word bestie comes in?
haha

true should interact with people who are different from u
so can learn more things
haha

ok balance
*uhmmm*
haha

i miss bestie
maybe yst was our last time tgt;[
dont abandon me
LOL



9:07 PM
amazingly silly?

mmm
been reading someone's blog
wont say who haha
anyway
im like woah~
good or bad ma
mmm
i say amazingly silly to the extend
haha
mmmm
got me thinking quite abit abt relationships
haha
but i guess is just a learning journey ma[:

ok anyways
life's like this right?
up down up down
u understand
im sure u been through them
keke
some survive
some fail

so be the survivor kays!
be strong!![:


i guess feelings are different
we hang out but there isnt any u know u know that kind of:
love~
on my side luh
haha
*phew*
2yrs
we'll see in 2yrs haha
if we still keep in contact
haha



9:33 AM



anyw
hai
sometimes there are somethings that just cant be typed out
or journal-ed out
haha
is super sadness
vvv super sadness
hai
nvm
anyway TGIF

haha
super happy today
work was smooth sailing
working with the peeps im working with is super fun
!!!!
[:
haha
den when shopping awhile keke

ok i officially have a boring blog
haha
;[



Thursday, August 28, 2008 1:49 AM

Dream Meanings - SEPARATION
To dream of a separation, represents a waking situation or relationship that is breaking apart. You may be experiencing separation anxiety. Alternatively, it indicates that you are feeling torn apart and divided. Your feelings are pulling you in opposite directions.


haha
guess wat!
I WAS LATE FOR WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
arggggg
gonna affect my appraisal
boohoo~
nvm
work was fine
not very busy ahha




somehow those words upset me
mmmm?



1:15 AM


the song is super nice!!!
haha in guitar
haha



Tuesday, August 26, 2008 7:51 AM
candy treat for ur eye

ok ur honour!
LOL
candy treats for ur eye
if too sweet may click on the red cross on ur top right hand corner
LOL
watever-_-










i kinda lose quite abit of weight over this few weeks
BUT!!!!im seriously putting on again!!
diet where have u go
LOL
jkjk
shall resume running
HOPEFULLY!
next wk!
tmr bld test results!!
pray pray pray
muhaha!




7:10 AM
learning journey

firstly let me say
MY SKIN IS HORRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
vegetable!!!
URGH!
fine
second i seriously think bestie is abandoning me!!
*alarm rings*
haha
oh wells
watever who bothers abt him!!!!!!
third
haha
today is like woah!
seriously didnt have much time to even check sms!
haha tat busy
busy with learning of course!
SN wanyi is super nice!!!!
strict and nice!
love really learnt alot today
really need to buck up
pull up my socks!!!!!!!!!!!!1
URGH!!!
expectations are higher
yr 2 must know their stuff!!

JIA YOU SUSU!!
is nt just wanting to be a nurse
is aiming to be an excellent nurse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
woots!

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Monday, August 25, 2008 5:04 AM
seriously silly susu

haha
i get contented too easily haha
good and bad i guess haha
i feel so silly haha
i can be so happy just by something very small
yet i can get all flustered and worried by something equally small haha
silly susu
i guess thats part of my character
haha

lalala~
keke
i can be such a little silly girl haha
grow up belsu!
grow up
haha



mmm sometimes i wished i didnt knew him
yet i thank God i know him
bleahXP

oh note to self
eat lesser and healthier haha
diet?
haha!
i miss!

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2:42 AM
who am i?

who am i,
that the Lord of all the earth
would care to know my name
would care to feel my hurt

who am i,
that the Bright and Morning Star
would choose to light the way
for my ever wandering heart
not because of who i am
but because of what Youve done
not because of what ive done
but because of who You are

i am a flower quickly fading
here today and gone tomorrow
a wave tossed in the oceana vapor in the wind
still You hear me when im calling
Lord, You catch me when im falling
and Youve told me who i am
i am Yours, i am Yours

who am i,
that the eyes that see my sin
would look on me with love and watch me rise again

who am i, that the voice that calmed the sea
would call out through the rain
and calm the storm in me
not because of who i am
but because of what Youve done
not because of what ive done
but because of who You are

i am a flower quickly fading
here today and gone tomorrow
a wave tossed in the ocean
a vapor in the wind
still You hear me when im calling
Lord, You catch me when im falling
and Youve told me who i am
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear‘
cause i am Yours
i am Yours

i am Yours

who am i ?
that i may deserve all these
the times that i fail u
the times when i turned my back away from u
the times i gave u up just so i can have fun in the world
the times that i cried and blame u for all the bad things
the times i broke ur promises
the times when i disobeyed ur voice
the times when i forgot to go to u first
who am i ?
that i may deserve all these

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1:47 AM
too fast too many

that is my mind haha
today first day attachment
kinda bored as usual
haha
cant wait for tmr coz got juniors!!
i love juniors haha!!
and im a super nice senior kays!
LOL
anyway too fast too many
my mind that is
today during attachment
alot of the same thing went through my mind

*shallnt say wat*
but kinda scared of this thought
this emotion
haha

dont always presume that people care about u as
much as u care abt them

dont always presume that people are happy when
they receive ur sms as much as u are happy when they sms u

wats first in one's heart may not be the same
as the other person's



though i was feeling confuse
didnt affect my performance
for that i give myself a pat on the shoulder
but just that i seem to miss more den usual
haha

oh wells
S.A Tan be gone
u dont belong in my mind!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
belsu must be stronger in controlling her mind and emotions!!!
JIAYOU!

oh ya i was worrying abt my future again
LOL
was thinking u see arh in 3 more sems im gng to work le
means three things haha:
1. i wont be in church as often esp fri and sat [pray God bless me with good shifts haha]
2. means will be busy wont have as much time to find for relationship!!
LOL
3. by the time i finish serving my bond i will be ard 23/24 and means i wan to get married le haha and i oso want to got SOT and further study !!!
URGH!
ok shallnt worry too much!!! God has his good plan for me!!!


lastly i think im getting better
i dont think i got hepatitis
coz im feeling hungry again!!
LOL
[:
happy susu

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Sunday, August 24, 2008 8:37 AM
plain random

7 THINGS THAT SCARES ME:
1. darkness
2. losing freedom
3. losing my besties
4. failing my exams
5. being cooped up at home
6. losing my voice
7. falling flat on my face

7 THINGS I LIKE THE MOST:
1. God
2. besties
3. singing
4. shopping
5. blogging
6. reading
7. being retarded

7 IMPORTANT THINGS IN MY ROOM:
1. my bed
2. lappy
3. aircon
4. makeups and all those
5. pillows, soft toys
6. rubbish bin
7. wardrobe

7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME
1. im retarded
2. basic makeup is EYELINER
3. im an ampilfier
4. i love chilling, hanging out till late
5. i cant stop blogging
6. im not attached
7. i love subway

7 THINGS I PLAN TO DO BEFORE I DIE
1. sing for God
2. be married and with family
3. travel ard the world
4. inspire people
5. live by the sea
6. song write
7. know im gng to be an singing angel in heaven

7 THINGS I CAN DO:
1. sing
2. worry too much
3. shopping like crazy
4. talk till the sunrises
5. roller blade
6. makeup
7. love people

7 THINGS I CANT DO:
1. stop worrying too much
2. stop talking and laughing
3. cook
4. i cant control how people feel and their actions
5. say my alphabets backwards haha
6. lose weight fast haha
7. control my emotions XP oops

7 THINGS YOU CAN DO TO ATTRACT THE OPPOSITE SEX:
this ma mmm i dont know haha!

7 PHRASES I SAY OFTEN:
1. darling
2. LOL..........LOL
3. relax~
4. bluff u got money taken meh? haha
5. wah sia la
6. dont disturb u le
7. loves



6:16 AM
squirmy

haha
feelie all squirmy
keke
weird feeling
dont know haha
sound like im in love or something!
but its not! dont worry

suddenly i feel like being so many things haha
i feel like being a little girl and play
i feel like being a sophisicated lady
i feel like giggling
i feel like going for a pinic
i feel like going shopping with my besties
i feel like taking photographs
i feel like dancing
i feel like acting retarded with bestie
i feel like taking long train and bus rides
i feel like being tickled by bestie
i feel like flying
i feel like laughing with bestie
i feel like hanging out with bestie
i feel like eating at NYNY
i feel like walking close to bestie
i feel like running
i feel like screaming at the ocean
i feel like piercing my tongue
i feel like laughing at bestie2
i feel like missing bestie
i feel like singing
i feel like playing hide-and-seek
i feel like having a tiny winy bit more of freedom!
i feel like staying out from home
i feel like travelling

i just dont feel like being me!!
boring me!!


MY SOUL SCREAMS FREEDOM!!!!



4:22 AM

finish reading tuesdays with morrie and the pact
tuesdays with morrie 5/5stars
the pact 4.5/5 stars

both recommanded!![:
anyway tmr is start of posting again
time seriously flies with u are older!
and 3more sems im gng to work le!
come to think abt it i dont know if whether im really ready
LOL!!
keke
anyway tmr posting at SGH surg ward 58
come find me
LOL
attachment is like sch now
haha
kinda settled in le
HAHA!!

peace[:



1:42 AM
your grace is sufficient

haha i wrote my first song!
haha simple
suddenly felt God's presence abt blogging my prev post
start worshipping and praying
felt tears cause his peace is like woah~
is like im on a boat with Him thats stuck in the midst of the biggest storm
but yet theres peace on the inside

Your grace is sufficient

Im your sheep, that’s lost
In the darkness, and the storms
I cry to u, will u save me
And bring me out from where im lost
Into ur arms, u hold me safe

I hear ur voice, peaceful
That comforts my soul
And leads me on I trust in u
I trust in you that i am saved
By ur grace is where I stand

You are my peace
In times of need
You are my comfort
Whenever I cry

You are my God
My almighty father
You are my friend
When im alone

I trust in you
I trust in you
I trust in you
You will carry me [x2]


[if u wanna hear it just ask me]
haha
[:



12:53 AM
i simply need God

did u know pst mark conner has a blog space?
http://markconner.typepad.com/

was reading his posts
and i was asking the qns he posted
reflecting on my life in this time

yea true recently been quite stress
over sch
over ministry
over frens
kinda feel like pulling out
giving up on self and God
kinda wanna cry everyday and pity party myself
i guess i have bad stress-handling methods haha
i guess been pressurising myself too much
i want to do everything by myself

rest i need rest
strength i need strength
life really is stressful
everything, everyone
till the extend i forgot to pull myself out of the hustle and bustle of life
just to find rest in God

so many things in me right now
im worrying over my grades
im worrying over ministry
im worrying abt my fren
these 3 are already enough to stress me out!!
[small capacity]
haha
but i just need God
i need God
i need God
i need God
i need God
i need God
i need God
all i need is God
right now
right at this moment



12:35 AM



i have decided!
i want a red ipod nano!!!!



red red gorgeous red
means i shld really start saving
haha
cut down eating too much outside
cut down hanging out too late

oh and i must, i will go for IT fair nxt sunday!!
hopefully bestie will go with me
LOL!!

red ipod nano
I WANT U!![:haha




Saturday, August 23, 2008 10:55 PM
ANGEL

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There’s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don’t make no difference
Escaping one last time
It’s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there



i woke thinking abt a fren
and i woke up hearing this song on my blog
and i worry abt my fren
not in my control
thats why i feel so helpless
i guess is not up to me
is my fren's choice
and God's plan

i know u yearn for tat second chance
u say u will wait, for sth thats quite impossible
but if it makes u happy
den i pray that ur second chance will come
i may nt be as gd but i can always be u gd fren

i just wish u would always bully me
so i know u are happy


shoo shoo~
i hate worrying too much
give me wrinkles and
gets me depressed
haha!!

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8:56 AM
REVOLUTION!!!!

REVOLUTION! my brain exclaimed
REVOLUTION! the rest of my body echoed
haha
i guess tats is wat is gng on inside now haha!!


REJOICE IN THE LORD ALWAYS
AND AGAIN I SAID
REJOICE!

REJOICE IN THE LORD ALWAYS
AND AGAIN I SAID
REJOICE!

REJOICE, REJOICE AND AGAIN I SAID
REJOICE

REJOICE, REJOICE AND AGAIN I SAID REJOICE

haha
you know God always put verses, revelations here and there
today i took bus home
and i seriously tot i was gng to cry aft he alight
not because he alighted but it means it gives me time to think abt wat the doc. said today!
haha
but i didnt!
instead i was singing all the way home haha
of course not loudly luh, wait ppl think im mad! haha
but during the course of it God reminded me of a sunday sch song [typed above haha]
REJOICE, always rejoicing, bad times, good times, i will never stop![:

i guess this bus ride home really woke me up! haha
i got a strong comfort, a peace thats amazing
that everything is going to be fine with Him, with God
i had sucha peace that calm my mind down from brooding over whether i got hepatitis anot! haha
and second thing that i manage to survive without
u see we are super good frens, close everything blah blah~
and sometimes i do miss him blah blah~
but somehow God comforted me on this bus journey home
could really feel that He was sitting right next to me, all the way
and i promise God that i wont be crying during this period
stronger!

and for the first time in my entire life
ok maybe nt entire life
i entered my hse smiling at my mum
LOL
yea am super awake now
and super hungry!!

off thats all
i love bus journeys with God!

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Friday, August 22, 2008 9:46 PM
pray for me

seriously i need prayers now haha
im super scared
seen the doctor
doctor say may be hepatitis [liver inflammation]
A or B
not confirm
tues nid to go back for LFT and serum hep
haha
damn scared
i almost cried there
coz i rmb that i had an exposure to a hep B patient
i repeat hep B patient just less den 2mths ago
[i guess its a wake up call to be more alert in the workplace!!]
ya
hai!
if i get hep B means end of career, end of studies
if i get hep A still nt so bad, just lose more weight
oh wells

peace haha!



9:27 AM
stress,sick and mental

haha
love the title?
stress,sick and mental
sometimes its scary when a person doesnt have anything to do
where a person has LOADS of free time haha
y scary
coz it gives time for a person to think too much, get sick too fast and get mentally ill
LOL!
i dont know abt u but tats me
did u know worrying too much is a sign of negativeness
haha!
anyway tmr gng to see doctor
IM LIKE SUPER SUPER HUNGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so upset today
super nausea like no one's business haha!
i will get well soon in Jesus name!
woots
haha
ok
anyways i better do something
seriously with my wasted life
LOL
ok not tat bad
just tat ya things are going on blah blah
*zip mouth*

oh did u know?
TODAY LAST DAY OF EXAMS!!!!!!!!!
damn shuang!!!
LOL
was fairly doable
a bit careless blah blah
nvm im still gng to do well!!!!!!!
haah[:
head and not the tail
[:

ok and thus means more time to pray
more time to read
more time to rest
more time to do fruitful things!
LOL
:O



Thursday, August 21, 2008 8:40 AM
pull myself out of the well

haha
everyone's getting out!
seriously ahha
i should stop going in too deep
haha
URGH!
the well's too fun to leave
but u know yas
hai
*just keep pulling*
*just keep pulling*
*just keep pulling*

LOL

anyways fellowshipped with mr fong and mr tay
haha
at vivo den bugis
haha
SUPER FUN!!
eh i nid to play devil may cry 4 pls!!
haha~
den i power lo tmr got paper
still go out to play!
damn sian now
haha
nvm!
;[
haha

tata
study!



Wednesday, August 20, 2008 8:19 PM
trust

human are scary creatures arent they?
a person that seem super quiet and nice on the outside
can maybe a monster inside waiting to unlease?

TRUST
difficult to build,
easy to break.
but why?
i always why?

maybe for my character
i tend to believe people easily
as long as u are nice to me and stuff
but yet its also a weakness coz it means i get easily hurt?
but i cant help but to trust people
of coz i know the really bad ones i can dont trust haha
but if i nv knew the person and i hear things abt the person
i will still trust the person
izzit naive? gullible? silly? reckless?

trust
i guess everyone need relationships with other
interaction with other
hear b4? one man's an island
when does it mean is a full trust in the person?
coz nid relationship means nid trust
and trust means it need time and yet if u trust someone theres are risk of getting hurt
haha
so izzit a vicious cycle?
haha!!!
oh well
i dont know wat im typing too haha

retard



9:26 AM

WELCOME TO THE RETARDED WORLD OF MINE! HAHA















just random posting
some random tots
haha

everyone seems to be getting out except for me

and he said he missed me which made my day coz i kinda miss him too
and everyone of course 2 more wks!

and i just realised
annabel blythe tan su ee
initials are
A.B.T.S.E
about su ee
haha
yea i know u wanna box me
im random[:
haha

tata
i shld start make good decisions and stick to them
URGH!



7:30 AM
NG tube

haha i seriously think i need to be NG tubed if i get hospitalised
haha
im like super hungry now again haha
and just now just ate cereals and milk
and i vomited all out
literally all that i ate coz i could feel like my body was gng to vomit my stomach
and i cringed alot LOL!!
sadness
my body is not really accepting any food now haha!!!
;[
so hungry
but no appetite
;[
something wrong with me?
i think i higher risk get GERD and oesophageal cancer haha
if i dont stop vomiting haha!!!
;[



6:01 AM
20082008

keke
happy 20082008 day
LOL!!
how did u spend this day?
i didnt realised until my papa sms me haha
wishing me
LOL
had bio paper at4-6
i think is doable
no problem!![: haha
den out shopping!!
and play haha
woots
i still cant find that shop!!!!!!!!!!
irritating!
will go back haha!!!!!!
[:



Tuesday, August 19, 2008 8:59 PM
expectations.security

seek not to impress man but God
i have this wonder

u see if a person is secure in God
there is no need to be going around to impress everyone
but because their is family, peers, leaders, self that sets an expectation
so theres a fear when one doesnt meet it right?
u see aint perfect i understand
people make mistakes definately
but making mistake to me is almost like world collapse
only because i know i may lose ppl's trust
i may be put aside
not wanted haha
u know that kind of fear
so thats why im pressured
i know i made big silly mistakes

but seems like im on my own now haha
ok plus with God luh
haha

island of mistakes
im there
come find me haha


shall not pity party!

people say its because i lack security haha
maybe?



7:30 PM
distractions.temptations.distractions

distractions.temptations.distractions
right straight into my face!!!
URGH
haha

so tempting!!!
so distracting!!!!
hah

almost
almost! fall into temptation
haha
but nv
haha

distractions ma
mmmm
i cant conc
haha
home and everything haha!!


ok 2 more papers to go
FRIDAY!!
as wat addie states
FREEDOM FRIDAY!

hurray

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12:32 AM
MacDonald's girl

by harvard din and tonics
THEY RAWK!!!
haha




and i went running!
seriously i feel fat
ok im
but im obessessed with losing weight
i eat one meal/ day
and i try to run almost everyday

haha
thats how crazy im !! haha
oh wells



Monday, August 18, 2008 9:58 PM
Singapore govt to spend S$700m more on pro—family measures

SINGAPORE: The Singapore government plans to spend an additional S$700 million a year on measures to boost its flagging birth rate. Currently, it spends about S$900 million a year.

Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong said in his National Day Rally speech on Sunday night that a baby brings much joy, but can also be a logistic and financial challenge, so a slew of measures will be implemented by the government to create more time and more funds to help parents cope with their children.

Paid maternity leave will be extended from 12 weeks to 16 weeks, and the extra four weeks can be taken anytime during the baby’s first year. It was previously extended from eight to 12 weeks in 2004.

There will also be a larger baby bonus for first—time parents, more tax incentives to encourage mothers to work, more incentives for the fifth and subsequent children, and more financial support for couples who go for In—Vitro Fertilisation (IVF) treatment.

On top of that, Mr Lee said parenting is not just the mother’s responsibility.
"I used to change nappies, in the days before Pampers. So you’ve actually got to fold the cloth, you’ve got to put it on, you’ve got to put the safety pin, I haven’t pricked any baby yet. If I can do it, that means anybody can do it," he quipped.

Emphasising that parenting is a job for both parents has influenced some policy changes which he hopes will help to shift attitudes. Childcare leave, which can be claimed by either parent, will be extended from two to six days per year. There will also be one week of unpaid infant—care leave per year, and mums or dads can claim it until their child turns two years old.

Mr Lee acknowledged that professional women find the cost of not working the highest, and he cited his own mother’s work—life choices. A successful lawyer, Mrs Lee Kuan Yew chose to put her children first, took on fewer cases, avoided evening work functions and ate lunch at home every day with her children.

He said having children is a personal choice, and parents have to decide their own priorities.
The government will help by catering to demand and creating 20,000 places at 200 new childcare centres over the next five years. There will also be more financial support to help kindergartens upgrade their staff and curricula, as well as more financial help for parents.
Mr Lee said: "These measures all add up to a very significant package. We are talking of about maybe S$700 million a year. If more babies are born, it will be more than S$700 million a year. But even that is about double of what we are spending today on child incentives and all together we will have about S$1.6 billion spent a year or 0.6 per cent of GDP."

For many people in Singapore, getting married is the first priority. Mr Lee said the government would do what it could to help, but urged young Singaporeans not to leave it till it is too late and to make time to go out, meet new friends and if necessary, join a dating agency.

Mr Lee also spent some time sharing humorous stories from the feedback he received from dating agencies, including unrealistic expectations and poor social graces.
He announced that the government will merge the Social Development Unit (SDU) which caters to graduates, and the Social Development Service (SDS) for non—graduates to increase matchmaking flexibility and activities.
SDU will also come up with an SDU Trust Mark to ensure that those who prefer using private dating agencies will get quality service.

singapore is desperate for a baby boom haha
wat to do small country plus ppl migrating away ;[
haha
soon soon

LOL




9:09 AM
growing old or biological clock or books?

haha
lets see im turning 18
in abt 4mths time haha
and i realised that i cant really study overnight now
i currently feeling super tired
haha
izzit coz im growing old?

this few days been gng for morning pm
does it mean my biological clock has been adjusted according?
thou im missing tmr's
im suppose to be chionging my revision for bio haha
XP

or izzit just because its studying
thats y i suddenly feel so tired haha
u see i still can blog as usual haha


ok i think the answer is number three
LOL
i must jia you!!



3:56 AM
mental

a potion from the bk im reading [the pact]

Emily
She had spend her entire life being what everyone wanted her to be. The
perfect daughter, the budding artist, the best friend, the first love. She
had been busy meeting everyone's expectations, in fact, it has taken her
years to remember exactly why it was all one big farce

in life u either succeed or u fail
is either u be u or u be others

recently im getting a little mental
in fact a little scary
a little suicidal
a little obessessed
a little up and down here and there
a little busy mtg expectations
a little busy trying to learn
a little too near the edge of the cliff

the tot of suicidal was scary as i looked back
simply just a few days ago, this week
first hopefully the last

too much stress to do well
too much stress to meet expectations
too much distractions
too much obessession

seriously im obessessed with losing weight
that im starving myself
to the extend where im feeling so fatigue and lifeless haha
but yet i cant get myself to eat more den one meal per day
haha
i can hear my stomach calling for food
but yet i dont feel like eating at all

hopefully subway will wake me up
even though i dont feel like eating


better chiong bio le!
woots!



Sunday, August 17, 2008 7:46 PM
exam blues

damn it
im stress
exams blues
and i think im sick
my intake is getting lesser while my output is increasing
haha
anyways now a sch lab
studying!!
URGH
stresss!!!!!!
be gone!
anyway have u ever caught in a situation where u always seem to stuck with the same person
haha!!
anyways
pm was good!
thou i still feel stress i know im gng to be alright![:
and i had fun relaxing aft tat
made me laughed alot!
*pinch*



8:19 AM
YOUTH

i got convicted as a youth
NOT TO WASTE TIME!!
which is wat i love to do
teehee
LOL
God convicted me not to waste anymore time
i wasted like thousand and one chances
millions of times!
be it in my walk with God
in my studies
in my development
i wasted time and opportunities

i gave things up so for that i can have temporary fun
how silly billy susu am i haha

i wasted time thinking too much
i wasted time wondering when i will be attached
i wasted time talking too much
i wasted time getting upset over the same things again and again
i wasted my opportunity to rise up and serve
i wasted my opportunity to love people more

but now I SHALL WASTE TIME NO MORE!!!!!!!!!!

annabel blythe tan su ee
shall be an opportunity catcher!
and time waster no more!!!

too short
too many things to do!
haha

ciao!



6:52 AM

my heart is floating middle air
u make me smile and laugh
yet u make me upset
God pls pls catch hold of my heart and fix it
glue it in place!!!
URGH!!

lalala~



5:49 AM
badminton challenge

BADMINTON CHALLENGE
ZACHARY FONG VS ANNABEL TAN
BRING IT ON MAN!!
haha
u are the best
its ok!
haha
my aim is to lose weight!
LOL
muhahaha



2:01 AM
80th post

*drum rolls*
haha
my 80th post goes to
*drum rolls*
is life really unfair?
yep u read it right
is life really unfair?
sometimes i ask myself that
why izzit that IT HAS TO BE ME AGAIN?
why izzit I SEEM TO BE WALKING IN THE SAME CIRCLE AGAIN?
why izzit I DONT SEEM TO BE REACHING MY DESTINATION?
mmmm
why is life so unfair?
why cant i grow up in a perfect family?
why cant i grow up in a better environment?
why i cant look like other girls?
why do i have so much problems with myself?

why why why why?
only why
haha

actually life aint unfair
yes things do happen to good people
and evil people seem to get away

life is just like an empty map
an empty book
is up to one self to path out
to map
to make decisions
to decided whether they want the harder way ?

we all have the same empty book
same empty map
no matter rich or poor
circumstances
one can change it if wants to
dont u think so?
so i guess life aint so unfair now haha
since we are all the same to start with[:



1:35 AM

was reading back my posts haha
i feel so boring
feel my life is so boring
nth much except complaining abt us haha
retard
i seriously think i suffer from thinking-too-much syndrome ! haha
serious
i need to get a life haha
need to get out and do sth!!!
haha
ok but for now shall study hard for exams haha
tmr is adult nursing exam!
urgh haven even finish everything
dead fish cans haha!
oh wells

i should start colouring my life with rainbow colours haha!
life's too monochromed!


off to study!



Saturday, August 16, 2008 9:52 PM

"So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half asleep, even when they are busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning." [Morrie Schwartz]



busy with doing the wrong things?



9:35 AM
a lost child

share a story kays haha
there was this child
young curious and wanted to try everything
one day the child's father decided to bring the child to see this beautiful mountain
that was across the country
the daddy drove his child across the country
out and to that beautiful mountain
along the way the child kept exclaiming how wonderful the peak of the mountain looks
and he want to quickly get up there
and the father replied with a smile, yes my child we will go there.
so reach the bottom of the mountain
was a long and winding valley leading to the foot of the mountain itself
they took there and the child told her daddy, "it looks scary" as she clings on to him.
He urge her on to start walking into the valley.
as time went by, the child became impatient and told her daddy whether they could turn back
"we'll nv reach the peak of tat mountain" she whined.
but the daddy only smiled back and said "yes my child we will go there"

as they walk it got darker and darker, and the child was getting tired from walking
so she asked her daddy to carry her and he agreed
bit by bit, slowly as the time grew later
the child arose from her father's shoulder and asked whether they reached
and he gently repiled yes my child
and the child stood there in awe and said we made it!!
haha
[pardon for any bad grammer]
the child is ME
the father is God
yep im like at the midst of the darkest deepest valley of my life
so far the worst luh haha!
but sometimes we forget to thk God at the end when we reached the peak of another glorious mountain and we just credit to self haha
i guess the only person who would stand by us in times of trials and valley
i can only say God
true maybe best frens would be there
but i still feel the safest is to cling on to God


Yea thou i walk through the valley of the shadow of
death

i will fear no evil
for U are with me
Ur rod and staff they comfort me

[:
it feels good to throw some sand bags!!!
woots!
now i dont care wat ppl say or think
as long as God knows
im sure its all gonna turn out right for those who love Him
woots
letting go of him
been clinging too tightly to him
yucks haha



Friday, August 15, 2008 9:08 AM
HA!

HA!
omg
first time didnt fall in the spirit
LOL
sai la
hai
nvm
but still got anointance
keke!
woots
thk God i didnt miss this wk's cg coz the word wah super in season haha!

ya as u can read my posts been trying to make up my decision
haha
so tada
the way of life
making wise decisions
choosing the path one set their feet upon would lead to different destination
i guess is during the period of youth
where is the time to make mistakes
learn and get moulded
nt until one is 30 plus plus haha
by den mindset all fix le haha!
so woots
GO AHEAD!!
of course still be wise luh
LOL
ha!!!

see la been crying over nth!
LOL retard

free free free~
better chiong !!! ><

anyways
current bk: the pact
author: jodi picoult
rate so far: 4/5
nxt bk collection: jodi picoult
haha!



Thursday, August 14, 2008 7:56 PM
susu decision-making theory!

haha
my own decision making theory

1. u get ur cognitive dissonance so u feel v uncomfortable
means there is a need for a decision

2. den u get all emotional, feel like u dont know wat to do, ur mind just cant seem to process the situation properly due the uncomfortable state [pray and lift to God]

3. so u either chose to deny the situation or u seek for advice or info of the situation [pray and lift to God]

4. den the questioning, doubting portion, weighting the both sides of the situation [pray and lift to God]

5. fast and pray and lift to God, ask God what would u do? what shld i do?

6. decision made

7. second decision not to regret the decision made

haha
susu' theory
im like stuck at stage 4
thats why i m always so slow in making decisions haha
retard
i like to question myself and my possibilities
thats why im always stuck XD



7:01 PM
i was just wondering

i was just wondering
if i made this decision
wat will happen to me now and in the coming future
will this be the biggest mistake i ever make?
if i cfm my decision
it means im gng to thread on dangerous grd
im gng to break from my protection shield
would u?
would my decision affect the other party or just myself?

mmmm
still pondering

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2:59 AM
chances

i have been thinking about it
i have been thinking shld i or shld i not?
*headache*
some people know it better
some people exp it before
but i dont know anything
except for the time spend tgt
whether i shld or shldnt?
*headache*
chances tell me yes
yet infos tell me no

i guess people need second chances rite?
i mean we all make mistake
ranging from small to horrendous ones
but they still deserve second chance?
many chances?
but yet at the same time those giving the chances will get hurt time and time again rite?
is there a capacity to contain the person's mistakes?
izzit possible to be the one seeing the change if chance was given?
wats the possibility of getting hurted?
does it mean if a person committed the mistake, the person will do it forever?
will the person be awake?
mmm
shld pray more abt it....[:


God?
how?
what would you do?
*sudden heartbrokenly confused*
ha!
;[
i would pick chance but im nt sure
haha

[mm i still think the person doesnt bother abt me haha!nvm]



Wednesday, August 13, 2008 11:29 PM
5 love languages

haha was just looking at other ppl's blog den came across a quiz
TADA! haha

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Quality Time: 10
Acts of Service: 8
Physical Touch: 7
Words of Affirmation: 4
Receiving Gifts: 1


Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz


go try luh[:



8:36 PM
life's a hurricane

haha life use to be roller coaster
haha
now its a hurricane
*blows* haha oh wells
it came like a hurricane, predictable yet unpredictable

today had my first paper haha
sia la
can pass luh haah
prayerfully
anyway aft that i was super emotional haha
went home crying cans
can u imagine how ma lu it is ;[
but today i cried like i nv cried before haha
i have nv cried so hard for a person before
the person meant quite a lot to me i guess??
all the way home
reached my bedroom and let it all out, i scared myself just by standing in front of the mirror! LOL
hai yea that bad
i guess cause it breaking up a close bond to not so close bond haha
it hurts ;[ ROARS!!!
but today 14 august i told God fine God haha
i will cfm plus chop let it go le cause anyway i cant do anything abt it ma LOL
so machiam just give u lo haha
my life everything God u take control
im too weak myself ;[
haha
now i feel like nth lo haha
not heartless
definately will miss as bestie
but all has it limits
all has it season
if we were meant to be bestie we definately will be bestie
even in the future
GOD SHALL DECIDE
YOUR PLANS FOR ME ARE WAY HIGHER!
but now is GOD, STUDIES, VOCALS AND CG
haha
busy like a bee~[:

*ROARS*

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7:08 AM
God's love is sucha mystery.roadside chat

God's love is really such a mystery to me
i dont know wat is so percious in us that He is willing to scarifice His only son
just so that He could patch the gap bt human and Himself
how no matter how many million billion times we fail Him
He still tell us He always love us
that He would go all the way out just for one lost sheep
that He would not forsake us through stormy times
that He never leaves our side
a love that really cause me to be in awe of Him

morning prayers are so impt
in bringing the rest of the day up
seeking God in the morning
bashing through all tiredness
just to be with God

my roadside chat
could just sit there till morning comes
talk like theres no tmr
see the people
see the cars
see the world that God create
building a frenship
that hopefully can last
building a trust that no one would break
share life's trouble
and edify one another
laughing like no one's business
and saying goodbyes always sucks
haha

watever so poetic aha
ok better revise one more time for tmr first paper!
GOD !!!!!
help kays haha
loves



Tuesday, August 12, 2008 11:36 PM
HOME

home is said to be the place of comfort
warmth
ahh~ to relax u know

thats why im super restless now!!!!!!
ROARSS
XP
hai to cozy wozy to concentration
to mug for exams!!!!!
super restless

I CANT STAND BEING AT HOME TO STUDY!!!!!!!
URGH
roars
kays i think i shall go downstairs the bbq pit there and study
LOL

tata~



6:53 AM
best friends of different gender

the best thing abt wat human can do
is to form FRENSHIPS along the race
people that u can hang out with, just talk until sun rises
but the portion where it is the opposite gender
thats gets a little problem hha

who wouldnt think that seeing two people of the opposite gender
hanging out tgt
playing tgt
wouldnt think maybe theres sth gng on?
haha
i would

but sometimes things really aint the way they seem

i guess there a need to express it out i guess
mmm

anyway i enjoy my time today
just talking abt things
just hanging out
rawks



2:37 AM
sotong.affairs

im such a SOTONG! HAHA
blur me
seriously thought i had a paper tmr
but actually its not!
LOL
its on thurs
hai
sotong


anyways i better be careful
where i am right now
my position
can make or break things
urgh!
i hate this
nv loved it haha
hai
GOD GOD!
seal my mouth



Monday, August 11, 2008 11:18 PM
LOVE/hate balance

i seriously LOVE this new balance commercial

LOVE/hate balance




10:32 PM
just do it

running
was something i HATE
u know H-A-T-E
seriously like nobody's business haha
but i realised it very fulfilling to me haha
simply running one rd pushs me on to do better the next time i run
today i ran
i walked alittle
but im still satisfied
i guess now a good way to relieve stress in no more eating for me
is RUNNING!!
who want run tgt with me pls sms call me
im gladly willing

anyway proud of myself
lost 3kg within this 2wks
woots!!
im on my way to being healthy hah!
healthy and slim haha!
*ROARS*
[:
and my diet arh
mmm not eating very well leh
dont know why
;[?
stress?



6:36 PM
spend time wisely.sick

URGH!
super upset with myself
losing control again
URGH!

*ROARSSS*

been wasting away my time
can u believe it has been 1 month
i tot only 2wks cans
omg
dead fish
hai
been wasting my time playing
not doing anything for my breakthrough
wheres my discipline
hai

today went for morning pm again
aft tat was discipled
im really slow in making decisions;[
seriously luh i dont know where im heading haha
dead fish
no more a laughing matter
better buck up and be seriously
i dont know wat else i can contribute;[

ok den aft tat went macs breakfast [again] with jon and ashley
haha i seriously think im not well
or tooo stress le haha
no appetite at all
hai
i ate luh but got home i vomited all my 5bucks breakfast
*roars*
haha-_-
den i go home
jon and ashley go sch lo haha

stupid first paper tmr leh haha
9am
cant go morn pm le haha
nvm thurs[:
keke

hai was so affected today
;[
be strong susu

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8:30 AM
RUNNING THE RACE WITH GOD

i got rmbed of a portion that pst preached
about finishing the race well
many people start of on super fire for God, want to serve this and that, everything is like a big bam
but as we continue running we know that people tire out, start to lose the fire and start to find things such a chore
i got reminded that if we start the race well
den we got to end the race even better![:
not just running half way and stop

like my running project haha
i started with 3 rds in sch
den 1 rd ard my estate on sat
i seriously hate running to the core
but i realised that if i start training my body to adapt to running, start pacing my speed
i know that its good for my health

same goes for the race with God
pacing one self is impt
pacing onself with God is impt
knowing where u are heading
knowing wat is planned for u is impt

love God



6:52 AM
*ouch*

missing a person hurts
trying to forget someone sucks
seeing the person while doing both can cause u to go back to square one
i understand
i feel
i exp
different yet almost the same luh haha

going through this took a large portion of me
my disicipline
my self control
sucks
it hurts
u feel like crying
feel like seeing the person haha
but u just know u cant
cant let it affect u
i know
i feel
it seriously sucks

but gng through it
i find myself tougher in this area
i can lose control one day and realise how silly im
and take control of my life
not allowing the other party to take control

not by my strength but by God's strength
really

i have all my fun
but end of the day
i still know where my line is



everything boils down to whether u want it this way or that way
ur choice[:



5:50 AM
PM.day out

woots today was a SUPER DUPER GOOD DAY!!!
except for some of my paranoid-ness
nevertheless haha
woke up le 545AM haha
to go for morning pm at paya lebar
along with gwyn, cheekiong, jon, nessa,morg,amandal, anjo, derrick
woots
it a very new start for me
i super enjoy spending time with God early in the morning
tmr go too!!!
den tmr shall go running and chiong exams!!! ><

den anyways we all went for breakfast tgt
at MACS! hha
den all left
except me, jon an derrick
i super feel like gng out to study!
so we stoned there awhile to thinking where to go! haha
said go town haha
jon: ya we go there shop for grills
haha
retard as usual
so go lo
called jie jie to come down too!!!
haha
den 3 of us slacked at buckstar LOL
for 2-3 hrs hah!
woots
i super didnt feel like studying
end up playing with jon
hai
den meet jie lo
den go buy tee LOL
same tee sat wear tgt!
LOL!!
haah den go cine to eat at pastamania
share food
den decided to go watch mummies
haha
stupid jon keep playing u watch out
thks jie jie for queueing [be jie's fren mus got money de haha!! otherwise ya LOL nvm]

ok mummies is a suuupppeeerrr retarded show!!!!!!
ok luh some credits to the effects
BUT IT REALLY IS RETARDED
keep on wanting to laugh
den slept awhile
><
nvm 6bucks haha

den suppose to go home end up jie go taka buy his brownie
den we wented shopping!!
from taka to wisma to far east LOL
and omg luh!! jie arh
from wisma gng to far east got a guy holding the free hug banner
so jie and me went
and jie hug him suupppeerrr long i tell u like the guy his gf or sth LOL
SUPER FUNNY!!
and play sissors paper stone the hit hand de with jon
im so sorry
im v violent hit until vein pop out and hand all red LOL!!!!
retard

ya thks a lot jon haha
for "bullying" me haha
u should know
and jie jie OMG I TELL U DO GO SHOPPING WITH HIM!!!!!!!!!!!
JOKER SIA
me and jon couldnt stop laughing!!!
and jon is the branded kid haha!
now i know arh!haha

den we keep walking and walking
until supppeeerrr tired luh
tabuleh
so go home lo
lol

JIE IS THE MAN!! haha
best shopper to shop with
LOL
and jon is well ermmss hha
sshh

ok off to chiong!!!!!!!!!
played too much
LOL



Sunday, August 10, 2008 6:45 AM
SILLY SUSU

im super silly
i cried over nothing just now
i was just being paranoid
haha
sillysusu

anyway im on study mode
last post for the day
i guess[:

ahhh~
so proud of myself
one step better
woots

thk God



5:41 AM

trapped in my own trap
same retardedness



better start my exam routine le!
CANT AFFORD TO BE DISTRACTED NOW!!!!!
dont care abt le
gambatte
susu can make it!
shall have morning pm and study away from home!
wed first paper!